*** GENERAL POINT: DON'T MAKE ANY DEALS OR PROMISES TO THE MI5 VOICES, BECAUSE THEY ALWAYS LIE AND BETRAY DEALS *** ....................................................................................................... today is 14:54 22/09/2005 they have been badly attacking me for about a week now they have been trying to attack me in public without leaving a trace; but that lessens the impact of their attacks, few in number, and "quiet voice" abuse, or indistinct they have been attacking me at home, from three sides; - Peck, their kid Mikey has been shouting and talking abuse through the wall of first floor study, as documented in "mikey-peck.txt" the Pecks either have video of our house, or they are being immediately told what is happening, because Mikey knows when there is a microphone against the wall of first floor study - he shouts loudly when there is no microphone, and talks at "signal/noise" level when the microphone is there I have made a number of newsgroup posts mentioning Mikey Cleveland-Peck's name - Chinese, in August there was "signal/noise" boundary level speech for first three weeks, then it stopped now it has started again - it is in father's room on first floor, spare room on first floor, and my room on second floor - gardens, continuous speech over from the other side of the gardens, they have some American person talking words are all the same from all three sources ... "wanker" ... "he's wanking himself" ... "crazy" presumably this is in response to my attempt to sue them for trying to kill me in Nov/2001; also in response to letter to Fayed a week ago my response is to buy further recording equipment; another minidisc recorder ....................................................................................................... they appear to be using speakers through the neighbour's walls, because I can hear the Chinese voice in first floor study, and the American voice is both from gardens and through Peck walls they are whispering very quietly, but some of it is appearing on the recordings ....................................................................................................... today is 13:57 24/09/2005 the attacks are continuing, from Chinese, from Peck, from gardens ....................................................................................................... today is 23:59 26/09/2005 this afternoon at corner of Englewood Road near new Tesco, three women with baby prams chased me and tried to ram their prams into me one shouted "he thinks we're chasing him" ....................................................................................................... today is 20:22 29/09/2005 went to Clapham common this afternoon, they were following me around with their electronic recordings all over the place they made a major operation today with lots of people; whenever I detected trouble, I ran away quickly the only incident which would have registered was a black guy on Clapham High St said 'crazy', got in a car and drove quickly away; didn't keep recording or take picture phoned Harrods custsrv; they had not received my registered letter of Monday ten days ago, which the postoffice claim to have delivered ....................................................................................................... today is 18:06 04/10/2005 went to Clapham Common and Clapham Junction today, they were following me around everywhere, massive manpower resources as since mid-Sept electronic ventriloquism on Clapham Common again; several incidents in C.Common of which I recorded one, audio and picture; Tues 3pm, old white guy white hair on the high street near Nando's and doctor's, talking to some black guy, "we're all nutters now", because I had described the MI5 agents as loonies; "filming street signs in San Francisco" in reference to my camcorder; certainty 100% because happenings have been constant recently several incidents in C.Junction, didn't keep recordings; they have been employing lots of people since mid-Sept, I would estimate approx 30 per day cost maybe £ 20,000 per day, consistently since mid-Sept; obviously they are afraid of complaint(s) Chinese girl in Battersea library between Reference library and lending library; "I leave home and never go back"; there was another guy there and he would have assaulted me if I had tried to take a picture faxed letter (a third time) to Harrods CustSrv at 5pm, to Ian Burgin; he personally collected the fax while I waited on the phone, said he would forward it to Fayed's management ....................................................................................................... today is 22:34 06/10/2005 saw GP morning, met Simanowitz this afternoon at 2pm went around central London mostly by bus morning and afternoon, stalked all over the place from bus to bus, and tube they seem to be employing massive resources again ....................................................................................................... today is 14:59 08/10/2005 late last night, between 11.30pm and 12.30am, a group of people shouting obscenities from the gardens words weren't sufficient clear on recording, so deleted recording ....................................................................................................... today is 11:42 10/10/2005 late last night, toproom, they picked up Tom Petty song 'wipe his brass' and repeated it, thus accusing my parents of paedophilia, of sexually molesting me when I was a child. I was very upset. this morning spoke to Mr Peck and asked for swearing from first floor wall i.e. his son Mikey to stop ....................................................................................................... today is 18:08 12/10/2005 they appear to be directly reading thoughts from my mind, as of very recently; people on slavery.org.uk tell me this happens to others also; this afternoon I have been wearing a cooking pot on my head to see if it makes any difference; it makes no difference, they are still able to read my thoughts; the panic "in real life" with the 30 - 40 agents seems to have subsided ....................................................................................................... today is 14:06 14/10/2005 yesterday Thursday I was at Tower Hill to see pdoc, two men talking to each other "they shouldn't have called his father that"; they had made obscene accusation re Tom Petty song, but that had been silent, not spoken out loud; therefore they are reading my thoughts, and inflicting thoughts on me silently/unspoken ....................................................................................................... today is 12:02 15/10/2005 apparently those people are homosexuals because they keep obsessing over my underwear particularly the Alan Holdsworth person, and the others seem to be the same ....................................................................................................... today is 23:26 18/10/2005 a few days ago they were silently shouting that my parents were paedophiles ..... a few minutes ago they shouted silently that I was a paedophile ... they are obsessed with calling people paedophiles .... perhaps that says something about them ....................................................................................................... today is 21:35 19/10/2005 I found that federal action has five year limit ... hence Nov/2006 ... thought "panic is over", but didn't say it out loud, they started loudly repeating that phrase ....................................................................................................... today is 19:56 20/10/2005 continuous stream of silently shouted abuse, two American voices and one particularly nasty and aggressive English voice; they are obsessively shouting obscenities every waking minute; "something wrong with the guy", "crazy guy", "kurwa", "what's wrong with the guy", nasty English said "you're a homosexual you have to kill yourself" partly same words repeated over and over, as if a recording; partly they repeat what I am thinking they are verbally knifing me in the head with their continuous silently inflicted abuse I thought the phrase "sticks knives in my head" and the American voice repeated "sticks knives in the head" ....................................................................................................... today is 14:36 21/10/2005 toproom, they are still reading my mind, and silently shouting so it goes direct to my ears even if I listen to loud music through earphones; mindreading? silentshouting? toproom YES YES fathersroom YES YES labroom YES YES diningroom YES YES mothersbedroom YES YES mystudy YES YES livingroom YES YES in other words, every room in the house I am thinking phrases at them; called them a gang of whores outside the window screaming for their money; the American voice immediately repeated "screaming for their money" several times. this is "thought insertion" because they are directly inflicting thoughts on my mind without an acoustic method ....................................................................................................... today is 20:35 25/10/2005 last night they were shouting obscenities in the top bedroom at 4am so I could not sleep, so I went to my mother's room and slept there went to Stefa in Beckenham, they made noises on the buses outbound, they inflicted sound on several rooms of Stefa's house, the American voice and the nasty English voice; Maryla said she heard nothing; I was upset and started crying; consequently this evening their attacks and sexual obscenities have intensified at home ....................................................................................................... today is 19:49 27/10/2005 on the night of 26.oct.05 at home, they were screaming about Jewish prostitute 'Heidi Fleiss', particularly the American voice, re. Lawrie Simanowitz this afternoon went to various parts of London, they followed everywhere with their inflicted sound; apparently direct to skull, because yesterday recorded on microphone at Kennington tube station the nasty Anglo girl's voice, and nothing appeared on the minidisc recording this evening 27/10/2005 went to Holiday Inn - Kensington Forum and they were here when I arrived, mind reading and inflicted voices, particularly the American guy; I had thought at home of staying here, so they must have read that thought at the Holiday Inn, there was a guy sitting behind the reception - think that may have been some security person; they started the mindreading and silent shouting just as soon as I arrived in the room ....................................................................................................... today is 15:27 01/11/2005 Sunday night 30/10/2005 went to Holiday Inn - Heathrow M4J4 they were here before I arrived; whispering direct-to-mind and mind-reading as soon as I arrived; also the staff knew me, at reception (guy mentioned google) and guy who brought electrical socket said "stupid" was awake all night, cried, they abused me with inflicted sounds / thoughts, particularly around 9am when I left the room they carried on inflicted voices when I was outside the hotel, nasty English voice said "commit suicide" today Tuesday at home they have been mindreading / inflicting thoughts, particularly they obsessed about my mother ....................................................................................................... today is 15:29 02/11/2005 my mother cried yesterday evening the horrible English voice has been making homosexual abuse all day today and yesterday he keeps insisting "my penis in your mouth" because they think that will force me to kill myself ....................................................................................................... today is 13:26 03/11/2005 the horrible English voice has been shouting homosexual abuse again today constantly, "my willy down his throat" currently 19:46 03/11/2005 the obscene English pig has been shouting sexual abuse against my dead father this evening the obscene English pig made a tactile sensation and began molestation "he enjoys being kissed"; which I found revolting ....................................................................................................... today is 13:56 04/11/2005 walked to Marylka's flat in DCC, MI5 followed me throughout with mind read/write, they are trying to inflict thoughts on me; they keep repeating phrases and trying to get me to think the phrase; also I felt them trying to slip words into my mind they also did mind read/write at Marylka's flat; I told Marylka what was happening there were two men at the Barclays cash machine in Balham; one said something to the other about "microwave"; they were trying to get at me regarding the electronically inflicted sound; also about a week ago near Clapham South tube, little kid "that's sick" about the sexual terms MI5 were using to abuse me the obscene English pig keeps swearing both at home and outside currently 15:57 04/11/2005 the obscene English pig keeps repeating "my penis in your mouth", they are trying to make me kill myself they keep putting words in my head, they keep putting thoughts in my head so I cannot control my thoughts, then they listen to the thoughts echo and they blame me for them ....................................................................................................... today is 17:31 05/11/2005 the obscene English pig keeps repeating "my penis in your mouth", again they are trying to make me kill myself currently 20:08 05/11/2005 the obscene English pig said "I'll enjoy pissing on your mother's grave" I phoned Elzunia Krzyzanowska, cried and told her what that person had said. She said she didn't know anything about people harassing me or inflicting speech. Perhaps she doesn't know anything; in any case there's no point talking to her again because she won't ever say anything different. ....................................................................................................... today is 22:23 07/11/2005 I have been going round London hotels today looking at security, they have been following me round everywhere, the American voice and the English voice. the mind read/write system works on the tube also. Sent letters to Lobster, Fayed and Cryptome. Cried once this evening and once when I got home. arriving at Clapham South this evening, I thought "I wonder what they will do with the three letters I sent today" and the voices starting shouting angrily "inform the police" and "stupid man". Therefore informing police appears to be a good thing since their voices are opposed to it. Went and bleated on dlbar when I got home. I seem to lack common sense because I hadn't properly considered that informing the police would be advantageous. wait for police to arrive and see what happens, then. ....................................................................................................... today is 10:44 08/11/2005 the English pig started screaming "he enjoys being raped" currently 11:23 08/11/2005 the name Alan cropped up, apparently the voices made a mistake and said that; then the voices suddenly went very quiet for a few minutes; think it refers to the person at the Civic etc; that may be his correct name 12:42 08/11/2005 American guy was shouting "al fayed will stitch all of us up" 15:52 08/11/2005 I asked why are they looking into my mind ... voice response "because they're trying to kill you that's why", seemed an English voice American keeps saying "stupid guy" 17:05 08/11/2005 dlbar [16:49] apparently, a dead person can testify [16:49] * furriner waits for "jesus christ" again [16:49] can't ....................................................................................................... today is 15:26 09/11/2005 spending today at Marylka's, the ghastly English child molester is whispering loudly again, the same phrase over and over, trying to make my thoughts repeat it this morning I thought about something in a newspaper about a man who made his partner talk swear words while lovemaking; then he abused the child and made the child repeat obscenities; his partner didn't believe the child had been abused, until the child told its mother that he had made it repeat obscenities, then the mother realised it was true this afternoon I cried again MI5 have been lying recently, on Monday they said the police would arrive immediately, and they told me to leave the house; they said the letter recipients would inform the police, and that doesn't seem to have happened; Ramsay couldn't care less and didn't tell the police; now they can't force me to repeat their phrases, so they repeat the phrases anyway and they claim I've said their words they seem to have resorted to merely lying at Marylka's the Polish satellite TV made a remark about "brutalne" which referred to my case; it may have been interactive; I think they are still doing interactive TV at home, and that remark may mean it's at Marylka also; ....................................................................................................... today is 06:18 10/11/2005 last night I took seroquel and 15mg zopiclone, went to sleep around 9am; this morning the voices were shouting so I woke up 3am; the American keeps shouting "stupid guy"; I asked what would have happened if they had not latched on to me in 1990 and he replied "nothing would have happened"; I mentioned MI5's propaganda of 1990 etc about "serial killer" and he seemed to think it funny and said "stupid guy" ok, I seem to be a stupid guy. I think these thoughts / self blame etc are what szs etc encounter; I have been told by other szs they have similar thoughts which are blame related; these ppl seem to be trying to inflict further blame on me by trying to get me to repeat their thoughts. the American has just read me typing these words, and said "christ in heaven, stupid guy" I think I have been excessively obsessing on the self blame, but apparently I'm a stupid guy, so I don't understand very much in 1990 they were shouting at me and they got me to say stuff talking in my sleep, I was crying in my sleep, and when I said something in my sleep they seized on it and kept obsessing about it; now they are trying to get me to repeat thoughts within my mind; so basically it is the same method with different technology I still don't understand who set them on me; I don't understand the psychology of what's happening, or only slightly; ....................................................................................................... today is 16:34 10/11/2005 this afternoon cancelled appointment with Jax Freedman because I was afraid to go out - yesterday there was a semi "fight" in Balham Hill PO newsagents where the Asian guy behind the counter smirked; MI5 may have been making an implicit threat of violence at me. this afternoon they were shouting "he's going to die in his sleep" which is probably untrue; they seem to be trying to mix everything up and make me report their words on irc, and their words are staged to make my statements look excessive for several days they have been insisting, particularly the American, that Fayed knows about the case and represents a danger to them; today the American several times said "Fayed knows nothing" about the case; they seem to change their statements the English voice is some sort of pig which sees obscenities in every word ....................................................................................................... today is 22:42 10/11/2005 the voices have been trying to trick me this evening, telling lies, then changing their stories, saying something else I posted a summary of nov/01 to uknot, got kickbanned; the American has been talking to me telling me the police would arrive; then he changed his story and said they wouldn't; he tries to persuade me to leave the house; I think that would be unsafe particularly now; he told me there was an email waiting for me, but there wasn't; they alternate between what they say so as to confuse everything; presumably this is some sort of psychological method which I can't figure out the purpose of. probably safest to stay in the house a few days; avoiding any potential harm; currently 23:28 10/11/2005, the American said "it's not the American, it's another guy" that's been menacing you this evening "it's not safe to laugh at these people" ....................................................................................................... today is 09:45 11/11/2005 voices said "if you go outside we'll kill you, yes" ..... "yes we know you're harmless, that's not the point" ... spoke to Mr Peck last night, he said nothing was happening in his house, and his kid Mikey wasn't making any noises through the wall don't ask him again because he doesn't know what's happening and won't say anything ... last night I asked why they had started 'interactive TV' is 1990, and they could not reply ....................................................................................................... currently 14:27 11/11/2005 was in father's room, two black youths on pavement with ball, "you hit them"; meant MI5 would beat me up or kill me if I try to send envelopes to Guardian etc. currently 23:38 11/11/2005 I said "they tortured Jerzy Popieluszko?" American voice said "yes they tortured Popieluszko" I said "not mentally just physically?" American voice said "yes just physically" ....................................................................................................... currently 13:24 12/11/2005 the American voice has been talking to me today, and I asked whether they knew who killed Diana, to which he replied "everyone knows we have actual knowledge of who killed diana" ... they've been talking subtext and either there is subtext or the sentence is at face value (posted to dlbar,got kicked) after posting to irc I asked "it was an admission?" they answered "yes it was an admission" currently 13:51 12/11/2005 the guy said "it's not via your ears it's via your thoughts" currently 14:44 12/11/2005 regarding the obscenities they were repeating and trying to make my thoughts echo, I asked if they said the same things to other people and the voice first didn't deny it, and then said "we say the same things to other people as well" currently 15:18 12/11/2005 "yes we know that as well. the barrister was corrupt. you can write that down as well. the barrister was corrupt." (re TPP) currently 17:02 12/11/2005 spoke to SANELINE, told them the guy had said "we kill Americans as well"; after call American voice shouted "of course we fucking kill Americans, who do you think we are?" ....................................................................................................... currently 18:59 13/11/2005 constructed aluminium foil cap with multiple layers of ordinary foil; it didn't stop the mindreading, and it didn't stop the silentshouting ....................................................................................................... currently 16:10 14/11/2005 they have been threatening violence / death if I go outside; I stayed at home Thursday onwards; they were messing with my mind, direct read/write today, I went out anyway to Abbeville post office, and there was no incident; so they are lying again; their threat of physical action was unsubstantiated probably safe to go outside, but be careful ....................................................................................................... currently 16:30 15/11/2005 some days ago I thought to bring this to the attention of the Florida authorities; one of the Americans shouted "we are the Florida authorities" today Tuesday they have been reading/inflicting thoughts since I woke up currently 17:36 15/11/2005 the English pig obsessively repeats "he lies about being raped" ... the subtext seems to be "he I raped" one of the Americans had previously said that the English pig was homosexual they are trying to make me kill myself from the shame of what they do to me currently 20:45 15/11/2005 "you won't escape anywhere, stupid guy, we'll follow you" later "you can write that down, the pig kills people" currently 10:21 16/11/2005 last night guy said "American who shouts 'crazy guy' is only via microwaves, not acoustic. Yes you can sometimes record microwave hearing", "Other people know that as well" currently 20:16 16/11/2005 they were talking about my mother ... "we don't care about you, or your mother" currently 21:07 16/11/2005, "we're all fucked, and everyone fucking knows" was in London 16/11/2005 and regarding FL authorities they said "They'll arrest us, you damn idiot. They're not stupid, they know who we are." ....................................................................................................... currently 08:56 17/11/2005, "no they're not your thoughts, they're our thoughts, and you can say that as well" this morning they woke me up 7am and tried to place blame with me for their actions. they said if you stop complaining then we'll leave you alone. But it was the English pig talking so they weren't going to stop. I asked them to send someone else to talk to this evening, they didn't answer; I asked for real life meeting, such a method as to be deniable for them, eg a person that others would find incredible as one of their agents; and they didn't answer that either. got the LESSEMF cap this morning and it seems to quieten them but not silence; they still mind read/write; perhaps the reflective material is too thin / insufficiently reflective. yesterday went to cinema, Vue LSq and was upset, they were talking while I was watching the film ....................................................................................................... Radio MI5 says "we're trying to destroy your fucking personality" "is it possible to destroy .... ?" "yes it is you fucking idiot" "then they kill themselves .... ?" "yes, it always happens" then they denied that and said it wasn't true ....................................................................................................... currently 11:39 18/11/2005 I had trouble getting to sleep, they kept verbally abusing me when I was trying to sleep; yesterday they made threats they would choke me to death, they threatened I would have a heart attack, then they said the technology didn't exist for that to happen; while asleep I cried and woke up, then went to sleep again; currently 12:32 18/11/2005 *** the voices are real *** , because they made a slip; I was thinking to tell me mother "caly czas o ciebie mowia" and instead the guy said "caly czas o tobie mowia", and I never use the word "tobie"; so they tried to predict what I would say, and they predicted the wrong word; "tobie" is more grammatical than "ciebie", but I never use the word "tobie". just after I had written above paragraph, the guy kept repeating "o tobie mowia", trying to mix things up and change my default response, in other words the guy was trying to deny those ppl being real; currently 16:58 18/11/2005 saw Bob Nightingale @ TLC this afternoon, it was obvious that he and the other people knew about my case; he has a copy of the "article-oct05" article and the CD; I told him MI5 tried to kill me and that they were listening to my thoughts and inflicting thoughts on me; I think he and the other people at TLC understood what was happening they were talking about TLC appt and they said "we mess around with other people as well" ... to which they added "but not him" they have been trying to insert thoughts into my mind for several days, which I have detected currently 17:56 18/11/2005 the American said it wasn't microwaves, it was ELF / extremely low frequencies, what submarines use to communicate he said there wasn't any possible shielding, because the depth of Faraday cage would be too thick; I asked how it worked on the Tube and he couldn't answer; he may be lying because the antenna length would not be portable on Tube trains also I don't understand how ELF could be targeted just at one person's skull and not at nearby people; they didn't answer on that either currently 18:49 18/11/2005 the American just said that it was ELF modulated onto microwaves, so shielding might work can't be ELF because wavelength exceeds size of human skull currently 22:15 18/11/2005 "if you don't kill yourself we're fucked, you can write that on the fucking chatroom they'll kick you off" "they don't all hate you you stupid man, it's just what you tell them" "it'll be brought out anyway you understand? despite your not being competent" I just want to be left alone ... "yeah we know that you stupid man, but we'll be fucked if you live" "thoughts do have an accent ... if you live, that will be interesting" ....................................................................................................... currently 16:17 19/11/2005 went to Argos, Balham, a lot of ppl with noise, also microwave read/write; they have been messing me around at home all day recently I thought "Britain is 30% coloured, isn't that a problem for them" and they said yes, they were going to do something about that, but they wouldn't say what; currently when I considered the comment they alternately said it was, and wasn't, valid; ....................................................................................................... currently 13:00 20/11/2005 went to 9.30am Mass at Polish Church in Balham, the MI5 voices followed and inflicted obscene abuse through the mass then went to Marylka's where some Anglo voice kept shouting at me throughout; Marylka and my mother looked worried watched Polish TV, the MI5 voices said "these people are stupid, that's what we think of them" currently 17:14 20/11/2005 nasal American says "we're fucked and we're going to Brazil, we don't care anymore, we're not fucked, we're lying to you" ....................................................................................................... currently 12:31 21/11/2005 watched TV this morning, think it was ITN, presenter surreptitiously smirked at me later that day they tried to talk me into going to Canada; I thought they were sincere, which is the third time I have trusted them, and unfortunately they were not since; they made a message appear on the screen of the TV, a caption, which they said was caused by a bug in TV; it may alternatively be caused by a directed transmission at the aerial, but they claimed it was a bug; I set them a deadline of midnight to leave me alone and stop talking to me, which they ignored, they kept talking to me, they gave me physical symptoms again at 2am/3am so I could not sleep, heart racing / veins dilating, which they various told me could/could not kill me solely from their technology; this morning they were again offensive, so I told them to fuck off and die; I told the "oxford anglo" that he and the other agents were pimping their country for their personal reward and sadism; he told me he would kill me for saying that, then he would not, etc etc; epitaph; "We who lived in concentration camps can remember the men who walked through the huts comforting others, giving away their last piece of bread. They may have been few in number, but they offer sufficient proof that everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms -- to choose one's attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one's own way." - Viktor Frankl IN OTHER WORDS, THE MI5 TORTURERS CAN ALL FUCK OFF AND DIE. ....................................................................................................... currently 22:41 06/12/2005 all of yesterday evening and last night was being talked to rapidly and without my attention wavering from the threatening English voice, which placed me in fear until about 6am ? when I called an ambulance because they were making my throat choke again and they said it would continue to choke without letup and I would have a massive heart attack. The fear was created so as to be internal so I shook as if cold although it was warm; I asked the voices if this was dissociation and they said yes. Ambulance arrived, throat choking which had been happening for 15 minutes stopped in the amublance, no heart trouble in ambulance, went to St George's with mother. Had a constricting feeling in the front of my head in the ambulance, trouble with being conscious. In the hospital continued to be very confused mentally; the voice kept telling me I was in process of going catatonic hence the constricting feeling in my front head; went with mother to Clapham by bus where MI5 staged some minor incidents of people abusing me on the bus and at McDonalds. Made GP appointment for tomorrow and went home, slept in the afternoon. during the morning the MI5 voices claimed they were videotaping every part of the St Georges / Clapham Common happenings to make a propaganda film to show how mad / inconsiderate I was. I have lost track of which way the cat/mouse game is getting played because they have just said that that would have no purpose (22:56 06/12/2005). currently 23:52 06/12/2005, "you have no idea how schizophrenic voices sound like do you"? I thought some of them were external and loud so they appeared to be real noise; and some of them were internal thoughts, quiet or fairly noisy, so they appear to not be externally originated. apparently I am about to find out. "because it means have to start talking you through intrusive thoughts, which are less pleasant"; that is where the thoughts appear in the mind without an active sound element. ....................................................................................................... currently 01:11 11/12/2005 they have been talking quietly and without menace to me today, without being offensive; but I cannot avoid their conversation; termed being "chatty with the torturers"; apparently this may be some stage in the interrogation/torture process, but I do not understand it; apparently when I come out of the "semi-conscious" state this is what will be really bad; that they tortured me and then it turned to normal conversation; I don't understand why this is really bad. ....................................................................................................... currently 16:48 11/12/2005 instead of their thoughts being 'external' to my thinking, today they have become 'internal' so they are almost indistinguishable from my own thoughts; except I can tell they are not my thoughts. they are also fairly quiet. I thought we had a 'silence' deal from midnight next Tues so they would stop inflicting/reading thoughts and I would stop complaining; this seems to be their response, or some form of further test; I will keep to the agreement anyway. the voices keep asking me questions and I keep trying to give accurate answers, although I'm not sure what they want with their questions, and I'm not sure of the consequences if I were to give an inaccurate answer the voices seem less loud and strident now, and they seem to be trying to be polite; I am wondering what this is about, perhaps they are trying to genuinely be better; olanzapine 20mg since Wednesday; currently 16:27 13/12/2005 "kings and presidents, you can write that down in your damn weblog" ....................................................................................................... currently 23:16 14/12/2005 a few days ago I "made a deal" with the voices which was; >no complaints on internet; stay off those groups; >in mindcontrolforum etc then use an alias, say nothing about MI5, merely ask about technology and methods; > >website, change dirname so as to be inaccessible on Tues; see if they go silent as well > >no more complaints letters; no more complaints of any sort > >IN RETURN, THEY WILL LEAVE / COMPLETE SILENCE FROM TUES 13/12/2005 MIDNIGHT > >if I break the deal, they will be horrible to me over the mind read/write ---> 07:46 13/12/2005, THE DEAL SEEMS REAL, THEY ARE QUIET; ---> 23:18 14/12/2005, the deal was for complete silence; they have been talking all day today, so I think the deal is off, but am not quite sure, they have been talking quietly and fairly politely mostly; I have reactivated the website and started faxing to USC again, still trying to figure out what is in the future; the main thing is I want their silence and apparently they also want my silence, but I have been quiet for several days as per deal and they have carried on talking; 20mg olanzapine seems more effective than seroquel, also the blocked throat / heart beating stuff has stopped, which may have been the seroquel, or it may have been the MI5 technology, or it may have been anxiety; ***************** additional notes on a few days before flight to Canada in late November just before I left, MI5 scared me shitless with what they did outside our house in the road; they set off a bright flashlight to tell me this will happen if the media descend; they had a black taxi which they said was to take me to hospital, I was worried I would be attacked in the taxi en route; they had a large expensive car with talkie radios which they said was Special Branch coming round to arrest me, don't remember what would have happened next; this was all in a single evening. ....................................................................................................... currently 21:30 19/12/2005 it's all gone quiet the last few days, still occasionally voices / intrusive thoughts, but much less than before; either the olanzapine is working or the mindcontrol is using the med change as a pretext to leave ....................................................................................................... currently 10:42 24/12/2005 just had intrusive thought again; placed into my brain mechanically a word at a time "we know you want to work on your c compiler, we are not here to help you, we are here to see you dead" unsure if this is some sort of sarcastic remark; it was clearly intrusive from external source; seems mind control is real, despite the olanzapine ....................................................................................................... currently 18:55 02/01/2006 some talking yesterday and today, but not all the time, olanzapine is not completely working yet, three weeks "what does X mean?" perhaps sarcastic question "get lost" what they say sometimes, follows my thought currently 17:50 03/01/2006 just got back from GP, told him olanzapine was much better than seroquel actually I am still hearing the MI5 voices, but they are quieter than a month ago currently 10:33 05/01/2006 they have been talking / abusing me constantly for two or three days, and I cried in my sleep again this morning currently 13:21 05/01/2006 cried again this morning; they are running some sort of computer script which repeats my thoughts, and asks 'what does X mean' when it finds a particular word eg one it cannot understand, or when it/its operator is sneering at something; ....................................................................................................... currently 14:31 06/01/2006 I asked them what they could offer me... "your life... in mental hospital in Canada", they would leave me alone there currently 19:19 07/01/2006 they keep telling me to "shred the crap" which is Ginsberg's transcript of 17/Nov/2001 they keep threatening that things will be much worse if I don't... "your life" if I don't shred the material they're putting thoughts into my head, apparently subconsciously, and I cannot figure out what the thoughts are; there is an Anglo male which keeps a continuous chatter which is very annoying; ....................................................................................................... currently 15:40 09/01/2006 they have been attacking me more severely today with the mind-telepathy... as a result I restarted the ukmisc-posts and the congress-faxes, which I had not wanted to do; I asked them what they would do if I did anything regarding complaints, and they said it would get worse and they played a recording of a guy whistling and shouting "heel" to his dog to show they would use inflicted audio; they hurt me badly by saying stuff about my family; they put an 'intrusive thought' in my mind which was not through hearing or 'silent hearing' but by direct thought infliction; they say they want the faxes to congress to stop, but they seem to be trying to incite them; English guy said "you're signing your own death warrant" when I was about to send a load of faxes to Congress - I think they're bluffing, in November they kept saying "you will die in ten minutes" etc, so it seems to be a bluff currently 18:44 10/01/2006 they said they would "do something" to me if the deathsquad webpage went up; I think they are telling the truth on that one; they would probably worsen things over the microwaves; currently they are talking continuously while I am awake, but since beginning of January they have not been too aggressive or loud, and they have not stopped me sleeping; they are still telling me to shred Ginsberg's transcript and the recordings; ....................................................................................................... currently 19:06 11/01/2006 they have been talking to me almost all day, but quietly; yesterday I asked for their silence but they have continued talking albeit quietly; they just said "you're killing yourself you stupid man" in response to my uploading MP3 files of 17/nov/01; currently 18:27 13/01/2006 they say "we will never leave you alone" and they are threatening me again unless I shred Ginsberg's transcript and the evidence yesterday I stayed quiet all day and made no complaints because I thought they would reciprocate with silence, but they didn't; THEREFORE MAKE NO DEALS OR PROMISES, BECAUSE THE MI5 VOICES DO NOT KEEP PROMISES OR RECIPROCATE currently 23:11 14/01/2006 they told me "you will be killed" "when?" "tonight" .... (here we go again) ....................................................................................................... currently 17:40 15/01/2006 they have been talking continuously today, alternatively "polite and cajoling" to destroy the evidence and transcript; then being abusive; then cajoling again; my sleep seems okay on olanzapine, generally things are better than a month ago; currently 18:38 15/01/2006 they are again threatening to kill me to prevent the "deathsquad" webpage from being published; currently 20:30 15/01/2006 the obscene English pig has reappeared and is talking continuously; apparently to stop the "deathsquad" webpage from being posted; currently 20:52 16/01/2006 "you can write that on your gravestone, MI5 does not kill people" ... they are playing some sort of game, telling me I am going to die tonight, because of the 'deathsquad' webpage, then telling me they don't kill people currently 22:16 16/01/2006 they just said "we can do that, but we would not, you understand?" regarding their killing me by EM radiation or whatever method currently 16:45 18/01/2006 they have again told me I won't live to see the deathsquad page published, that they would see me dead before it was published; I am ignoring them because they were making similar threats a month ago and they didn't do it, they only scared me; currently 21:42 18/01/2006 they said "it wasn't an MI5 deathsquad, it was the Americans" ... they are trying to blame someone else again ....................................................................................................... currently 00:29 19/01/2006 Marek Curtis phoned this afternoon from his workplace, immediately started questioning about "solicitors" and "Canada", I quickly terminated the call; he is making a nuisance because of the deathsquad file which got posted today currently 19:34 19/01/2006 went to London today, voices mostly absent, reappeared when I got back home; the Anglo molester voice is there again this evening; ....................................................................................................... currently 19:27 21/01/2006 went to Marriott Heathrow hotel, spending tonight here; voices were absent when I arrived at 1pm; caught up around 5pm, but less intense, seem more as if internal, or cannot figure out whether internal or externally inflicted; currently 22:55 21/01/2006 at hotel, the horrible Anglo pig is talking sexual abuse ....................................................................................................... currently 20:35 25/01/2006 "We'll kill you in Paris" according to the MI5 voices today Private Eye accepted the (revised) deathsquad ad, they phoned me and agreed the ad minus '/evidence/#deathsquad' above seems to be MI5's reaction, they've been vocal again this evening then they go back to the usual "we cannot kill you" currently 19:57 28/01/2006 they are again telling me to go to mental hospital in Canada ... if I don't they say they'll kill me then they say again "we cannot kill you" currently 18:14 30/01/2006 "you will never send this letter, we'll kill you" ... regarding the P.Cadman letter, they are making the usual threats against me today I sent letters to Liberty + GuardianEditor "the pig kills people" ... the English pig has returned, sexual abuse ....................................................................................................... currently 16:38 31/01/2006 the English pig voice is there again ... talking sexual abuse currently 17:04 31/01/2006 voice said "they cannot deny everything" ... that MI5 cannot deny my claims before the Information Tribunal or court currently 10:09 01/02/2006 voices were talking sexual abuse while I was asleep.... I cried in my sleep.... as I was waking up they were still talking sexual abuse voices said "we will kill you" if I go to Paris voices said "we'll be a laughing stock" as a result of the Private Eye advert currently 15:59 05/02/2006 MI5 voices said "we just do what they pay us to do" latest realworld phrase is "fucking idiot", yesterday at pub in Balham, today near Victoria station presumably a result of the Private Eye advert with "mi5 tried to kill me" etc ....................................................................................................... From: MI5.Victim@privacy.net Newsgroups: uk.misc,uk.legal,uk.politics.misc,alt.conspiracy Subject: Re: MI5, Horrible English pig voice is there again Date: Fri, 03 Feb 2006 12:15:49 +0000 I don't know. There are web boards with people who consider themselves mind control victims, but I haven't got around to reading them yet. Basically the way mind control is conducted is to make it look like genuine mental illness, for deniability, or that has been my experience of it. A useful observation is that mental illness is responsive to treatment, and I'm on 20mg of olanzapine which worked for seven years and it's not stopping the thought insertion, which is one of the things that makes me think it's technology. Another thing is that a couple of months ago they kept saying "You win the game, you win the set, you win the match" and "You lose the game, you lose the set, you lose the match" and I don't know if those would be symptoms of schizophrenia. I had a quick look at some web material and that seems to be how cults conduct brainwashing (obviously verbally rather than technological mindreading). ....................................................................................................... 14:17 09/02/2006 "we'll be the biggest joke on earth" ... their reponse to one of my comments "everyone hates that person" ... about the "pig" voice which talks obscenities currently 17:43 11/02/2006 they are still telling me "kill yourself" because there is no legal recourse against the security service they say "we want you out of our country, we're sick of you", they say they would not kill me if I went to France ....................................................................................................... currently 20:52 16/02/2006 they are torturing me with sexual abuse I asked, why are you doing this? they answered "because you have not killed yourself yet" currently 15:28 19/02/2006 mindreading is at home, not when I go into London; I went to Nero caffes yesterday and today, and there was no mindreading ....................................................................................................... currently 23:28 22/02/2006 "we're not joking, other people are dead by this stage" ....................................................................................................... currently 12:48 24/02/2006 yesterday evening went to cinema with Marek Curtis and his friend, voices were silent all evening; got home, they started again ....................................................................................................... currently 12:33 25/02/2006 they did not want the letter to James Goudie to be written; they said things would be quieter if I did not write the letter; when I thought I intend to write the letter, they put "have to kill myself" on a repeat loop; ....................................................................................................... From: MI5.Victim@privacy.net Newsgroups: uk.misc,uk.legal,uk.politics.misc,alt.conspiracy Subject: "yes we are murderers" claim MI5 mind control voices Date: Sun, 26 Feb 2006 16:26:25 +0000 isn't there a single decent person who would admit what is happening? ....................................................................................................... currently 11:33 09/03/2006 away in Paris for one week, they were at the apartment from the time I arrived; mostly restricted to apartment, not outside they said just now "we will abuse your father" unless I stop complaining currently 17:17 09/03/2006 I thought about making another usenet post, the English pig voice said "you do that we'll kill you" ....................................................................................................... currently 19:49 16/03/2006 they have been doing some mild telepathy stuff around London, and bad when I got home I posted; subj: MI5 microwaves won't admit they're real When I got home this evening MI5 were telling me of a "once in a lifetime" opportunity, they would leave me alone, I would leave them alone. The problem is they refuse to provide any evidence of their being real. Your MI5 employers don't want this going on indefinitely, so why don't you do what I have suggested, and we can all have some peace? ....................................................................................................... currently 22:07 18/03/2006 have been taking amisulpride for three days, having some effect but not much; went to LSq today, no voices outside the house; returned home, voices/telepathy again but not as severe as before; TELEPATHY HAPPENS AT HOME ONLY - IT DOES NOT HAPPEN WHEN I GO INTO LONDON ....................................................................................................... currently 13:46 30/03/2006 has been quieter for a week perhaps due to amisulpride - but this morning voices have been going again despite taking the pill currently 22:12 03/04/2006 some talking over the mindcontrol this evening ... "we are killing you, you stupid man" a moment ago currently 20:08 10/04/2006 they have been abusing me severely over the mindcontrol since Saturday, probably due to faxes to Parliament being sent as of late Saturday the abuse is entirely at home; it doesn't occur outside the house; particularly they force my thoughts, and then they repeat my thoughts to show they are reading my mind ....................................................................................................... currently 21:37 19/04/2006 things are relatively quiet currently currently 16:20 20/04/2006 they have been verbally punching me in the head all morning over the mindcontrol; increasing to amisulpride 1,200mg/day as a result ....................................................................................................... Newsgroups: uk.misc,uk.legal,uk.politics.misc,uk.rec.sheds,alt.conspiracy Subject: "You're our nigger" shouts the MI5 mindcontrol Date: Fri, 21 Apr 2006 20:59:32 +0100 Apparently I have sunk so low as a result of MI5's abuse that they now think I'm black. I have news for you. I am not black. I have a first from Cambridge and a masters degree from Imperial. So British Intelligence can carry on wanking outside the window (see sig video), they can try to kill me (see sig), but (pace Michael Jackson) they cannot yet turn white people into black people. ....................................................................................................... currently 23:25 24/04/2006 they have been verbally punching me in the head all day today while in the house over the mind control; "we want you to masturbate" being their shout this evening; following on from the theme of their being sexually predatory ....................................................................................................... currently 21:45 26/04/2006 had Steadman this evening for TSCM; before the arrival all went quiet, stayed quiet during the TSCM sweep, then once they'd left voices exploded with "horrid little man", English pig voice said "he enjoys watching him masturbate" ....................................................................................................... currently 18:06 03/05/2006 they were talking to me all evening yesterday. During the night I woke up crying, and heard a mindcontrol voice abusing me. they are still present only at home, and not outside the house, either with the mindreading or the inflicted voices. currently 20:48 03/05/2006 I cried again this evening, and that set MI5 mindcontrol on another series of abuse. They seems to find my crying exciting, it spurs them on to attack me. Same as was happening in 1992, same monstrous people, but different methods because it's mindcontrol. ....................................................................................................... currently 11:45 12/05/2006 went to Paris on 4/may, all totally quiet in Paris, and totally quiet since .......................................................................................................