.................................................................................................... currently 07:22 30/04/2008 To my surprise, there was no mindcontrol yesterday. I went to hospital in the afternoon with my mother for her problems, a cyst which is benign. currently 16:53 30/04/2008 I got home an hour ago, there was no mindcontrol outside. Once home the Obscene English Pig started abusing me on the mindcontrol as soon as I got into the house, reading my mind and swearing at me violently. The volume is quiet although increasing and the venom is the same as always. I have taken all my pills and hope they knock me out soon so I can avoid the Obscene English Pig on the mindcontrol. currently 19:00 01/05/2008 I got home 4pm, with the customary pattern of there being no mindcontrol outside and it only occurring within the home. It started around 4.40pm so I took all my pills which have not yet sent me to sleep. In the meantime the mindcontrol swearing and mindreading from the Obscene English Pig has continued. It is quieter than a few weeks ago but the words are the same and there seems no end to it. currently 17:06 03/05/2008 MI5 viciously attacked me on the mindcontrol as soon as I got home a few minutes ago, swearing at me and saying "we want you to cry". I shouted out loud "fuck off you damn pigs" several times and took an anti anxiety pill because the mindcontrol made me extremely anxious. MI5 denied on the mindcontrol that they were pigs but they kept swearing and abusing me. The Obscene English Pig started asking "shall we leave this guy alone?" while I shouted out loud "fuck off you perverted scum" at him. I challenged him to repeat his statement about black people and he was happy to; "blacks are animals, right". He knows MI5 will always protect his identity so he can say what he likes. currently 01:32 04/05/2008 Yesterday I went to sleep around 5pm, waking up briefly around 8pm when a group of MI5's blacks were screaming "rape" outside the window. MI5 think blacks as animals and at the same time they use these "animals" to abuse people. Some blacks hate whites so they have no problem abusing white people. Four years ago I was the victim of a violent mugging by two blacks when my cellphone and camera were stolen and I was threatened with assault so it is natural for MI5 to use these violent "animals" in their campaign against me. .................................................................................................... currently 21:49 04/05/2008 MI5 HorrorFags attacked me twice today, the first time around 8pm when I got home after briefly going out. They read my mind and tormented me with sexual abuse over the mindcontrol, but their voices were very quiet so I could not tell who it was, although it sounded like more than one person. The second time is a few minutes ago when they started repeating their usual stupidities "what is zopiclone?" about the sleeping pill I had just taken to avoid them. Again they are reading my mind and repeating my thoughts in their formulaic manner. Today is Bank Holiday Sunday and between 8pm and 9.30pm I was in the pub drinking mineral water. MI5 HorrorFags are truly sad bastards for not having anything else to do on a Bank Holiday other than molest their poor victim. .................................................................................................... currently 15:37 05/05/2008 I went into the garden to do some weeding an hour ago, and MI5 read a word "upwind" from my mind and kept repeating it at me using mindcontrol for the next 30 minutes in the garden. I am now leaving the house because I have had enough. If this is how the British "Intelligence" / Stupidity HorrorFags spend their Bank Holiday Monday then they must be poor sad people indeed. Don't they have anything else they could be doing? currently 23:27 05/05/2008 I have been out all afternoon and evening and there was no mindcontrol outside. As soon as I got home 10 minutes ago the MI5 Horrorfags - several of them this time - started reading my thoughts and screaming "zopiclone" which I had just taken, which is a sleeping pill. I thought "lick my asscrack" at them and they slowly read my thoughts "lick my ... ass crack". They seem to be simply repeating whatever is in my mind, to annoy me and try to cause a rut to form in my mind. I thought "lick my asscrack" at the obscene MI5 homosexuals to see if they would repeat it on the mindcontrol, or whether they were clever enough to avoid repeating it, and sure enough their stupidity ruled them and they dutifully repeated "lick my ... ass crack". What is worrying about this episode is that I have been out of the house for eight hours and MI5 are showing increasing desperation on the mindcontrol to vex and annoy me in the days before I go off to Poland. They have done no work for 8 hours; they have just been sitting there in a neighbouring house uselessly; stalking, waiting to shriek at me as soon as I got home. Their desperation is traditional in real life also, because whenever I went between UK and Canada they always abused me especially severely just before the trip. What is even more worrying is that today is Bank Holiday Monday when the pubs are full and people have social lives. The MI5 HorrorFags are poor souls who wait doing nothing for eight hours while their victim is visiting a friend and enjoying a film, and obviously they are raking in the money from a government which is ignorant of their activities and thinks they're targeting terrorism when there being homosexually sadistic torturers, but they have no social lives whatsoever. They left me alone completely on Christmas Day, and returned very angry on Boxing Day, because they had been deprived of their homosexual fixation for one day, so they were angry. These are not normal people. British Intelligence employ homosexual psychopaths who see stalking as the only mode of life they are able to conduct. I asked "do you still employ the dirty old queer Alan Holdsworth" and MI5 mindcontrol answered "yes we still employ that dirty old queer". Alan Holdsorth is the chief persecutor working for MI5 in the nineties particularly when he followed me into the Civic Hospital and loudly announced his name to the doctor as "Tad", so Dr Worthington was puzzled and said "but your name's Alan Holdsworth isn't it?" (I did not catch his name exactly) and the MI5 man looked much crestfallen. That guy is a gay stalker with no social life other than stalking me all the time and he is a serious criminal and sexual deviant. .................................................................................................... currently 22:20 06/05/2008 I just got home, spent all day outside where there was no mindcontrol. As soon as I got home all hell broke loose. MI5 directly wrote to my thoughts a sequence "schizophrenic" answered by "paranoid kurwa" which was repeated and absolutely maddening. After a few sequences they said "leave us alone" and pretended I was repeating after them "I solemnly swear on my mother's grave that I will leave MI5 alone". I was reading some entries in this report from 2005, and it is clear that they have the capacity both to read and directly write thoughts to the mind. The Evil Man voice started saying "delete the rest of your blog". I thought "my mother is holy" and one of the mindcontrol agents started repeating "what does holy mean?". I asked "why are you people so excited all of a sudden?" and waited for a response on the mindcontrol. This is an actual conversation now, same as in 2005, rather than just them reading my thoughts and repeating them to annoy me. I don't know why they're reacting so strongly just now though. Hindler is going to get struck out. They answered "the problem is not Hindler. What follows." What about Hindler, they asked. What about him, I answered, that'll get struck out. I think they're wasting my time. I think the ersatz excitement is to earn them some overtime. They said "you're lying". I said "I want to go home". They recognised the thought Cambridge, and they said "he's at Cambridge and he wants to go home". I asked "how many other people are you doing this to?" "We know you've got problems okay? Just leave the Tribunal alone okay? Leave us alone and you won't have that thought." They are directly writing thoughts to my mind. "Alright, we'll leave you alone for now ok?" They are placing me in some sort of childish thought state and calling me "dupa" which they did in 2005. I think they do this to extract accurate answers to their questions because for some reason answers given in the childish state are unguarded. "What vague ideas do you have?" I didn't want to tell them my vague ideas. "We're bored as well okay? We'll leave you alone now". currently 00:10 07/05/2008 The Evil Man voice (he and the Pig are both present tonight) just made an obscene suggestion to me, so I shouted out loud "fuck off you disgusting faggots" at them to drive them off. .................................................................................................... currently 12:24 07/05/2008 MI5's Obscene English Pig voice swore at me repetitively between my waking at 9am and my leaving the house at 11am. There was no mindcontrol outside the house. I returned 10 minutes ago and the Pig voice immediately restarted, constantly. I thought "this is hell" and the Pig answered "you don't know what hell is". currently 16:47 07/05/2008 I got home an hour ago and the MI5 HorrorFags have been abusing me on the mindcontrol all the time. There are several of them including the Pig and they are employing serious sexual abuse. They explained that "leave us alone" actually meant "commit suicide", and I told them that I couldnt't because I was a Catholic. I thought "this is awful" and the Evil Man answered "awful is the right word". "What does crap people mean?" they asked. .................................................................................................... currently 15:11 08/05/2008 I got home an hour ago, there was no mindcontrol outside. A few minutes after I got in the house MI5's Obscene English Pig started abusing me sexually and repeating my thoughts on the mindcontrol. He is still doing this now despite my having taken all my pills including two sleeping pills to try to knock myself out early thus avoiding the horrible mindcontrol. Just now the Pig clarified what "leave us alone" means. It doesn't mean stop complaining about MI5, because I am not complaining about MI5. It means "commit suicide", they want me dead and they have been abusing me solidly since late October last year with that aim. "Leave us" because leave life, and "alone" because no one kills themselves in company, it is always a lonely method of dying. currently 14:55 09/05/2008 I went to sleep around 3pm yesterday afternoon, knocked out by the pills. I slept with breaks until 11am this morning. There was no mindcontrol when I awoke. Then I went to see my social worker. After that I went home arriving around 2.15pm. The Obscene English Pig started whispering on the mindcontrol about 10 minutes ago so I promptly took all my pills again and hope to go back to sleep to avoid the Pig on the mindcontrol. This follows a standard pattern, with no mindcontrol immediately before a medical meeting followed by mindcontrol immediately after. The only escape is to get out of the house or to knock myself out with pills. .................................................................................................... currently 06:36 10/05/2008 MI5 mindcontrol have started sexually abusing me early this morning. Usually they don't start until I get home in the afternoon, but today they must be desparate because they have started the mindreading and verbal sexual abuse at 6.30am. The volume is very low but it doesn't sound like the Pig or the Evil Man; they are employing someone else on the mindcontrol this morning. They are just repeating the same annoying phrase over and over. currently 12:29 10/05/2008 I took a sleeping pill at 7am and slept until noon to avoid the mindcontrol early this morning. MI5 are heavily ramping up the abuse ahead of my trip to Poland next week. currently 16:20 10/05/2008 I just went out for a coffee, and when I got back the Obscene English Pig immediately attacked me on the mindcontrol saying "something seriously wrong with that man". It was live and not a recording. Today is a bright sunny day and I am surprised MI5 see abusing me as taking priority over enjoying the Saturday sunshine, but they seem to be addicted to abusing me over the mindcontrol. The pills I took this morning and afternoon (every pill I could think of) do not work on the mindcontrol, which is obviously real, so no pill will work, not even ziprasidone which I had some hopes for. MI5 are going into hysteria mode with the abuse shortly before I go to Poland to see my family, so we can expect MI5 HorrorFags to be hysterical in Poland also, just as they were the last time we went there with my mother a few years ago. currently 19:07 10/05/2008 MI5 HorrorFags have been abusing me over the mindcontrol since 4pm, swearing at me and reading my mind. It is continuous and unremitting. The NHS psychologist was looking for causes and what makes it start, but nothing makes it start, it starts when MI5 decide it will start and continues until I leave the house or go to sleep. I have taken numerous pills in the last 24 hours including anti psychotic and anti anxiety pills and I am still getting the mindcontrol, which should not be happening if it were the illness, therefore it is a product of MI5's evil agents swearing at me, motivated by the money they receive for their abuses and their evil perverted managers who delight in my torture. currently 22:18 10/05/2008 MI5 have created a real world incident of persecution by sending people round the front of our house to scream "nutter" at me. I replied "fuck off you shitholes" and their rubbish ran away quickly. currently 23:35 10/05/2008 Some ghastly Anglo whore was cackling in the gardens, so MI5 mindcontrol read my mind and asked "what does cackling mean?" I told them "fuck off you perverts". They are practicing their mindcontrol torture even this late in the evening. They must be really desperate in advance of my visit to Poland, but they have always set up a hysteria before I go anywhere, even ten years ago before the mindcontrol started. .................................................................................................... currently 20:43 11/05/2008 MI5 HorrorFags were quiet all day until a few minutes ago when they read my internet chat screen and asked "what's lulu?" That is the name of an online publishing system. I was surprised to hear them because I thought they'd gone for today, or for good. The Obscene English Pig voice started swearing at me so I told them "fuck off you fags". currently 21:33 11/05/2008 The Obscene English Pig voice has been reading my mind and abusing me for almost an hour. I am very anxious and have taken an anti anxiety pill. I hope to go to sleep soon to avoid the ghastly Pig and the mindcontrol. I have been shouting out loud "fuck off you damn fags". They are telling me "leave us alone" again which is code for telling me to kill myself. The Obscene English Pig just swore violently at me and asked "what does broken down mean?" It is clearly live and they clearly intend to keep on abusing me. After that I took another anti anxiety pill because the first one didn't reduce my anxiety level. I still couldn't get to sleep. I kept screaming "fuck off you damn fags" at the Obscene English Pig voice on the mindcontrol. .................................................................................................... currently 15:41 13/05/2008 MI5 HorrorFags attacked me in the bath again about 30 minutes ago, which is where I am at my weakest. They kept up their formulaic swearing and mindreading from the Obscene English Pig. I have taken a sleeping pill and look forward to going to sleep early to avoid the mindcontrol. The abuse in continuous and unremitting. They just asked "what does zopiclone mean?" currently 05:32 14/05/2008 I went to sleep after taking pills yesterday afternoon and was woken around 8pm by a phone call. I was so anxious I took a further two sleeping pills to knock me out. I slept until 5am this morning. .................................................................................................... currently 15:47 14/05/2008 I got home 1pm, and the HorrorFags attacked me on the mindcontrol about 30 minutes ago, just after I had brushed my teeth. Previously I had complained on internet newsgroups that they attacked me while I was brushing my teeth, at my most vulnerable, so now they seem to be reacting by delaying their attacks until I have finished brushing. The Obscene English Pig in a quiet voice asked "what does cope with work mean?" because I know someone else who isn't coping with work and is going onto effective disability. The OEP has been talking occasionally for the last 30 minutes. I am leaving the house for a little while because I don't feel like knocking myself out with medication this early today and it's quite a warm sunny day, and of course the mindcontrol machine is near the house so it never happens outside. currently 17:37 14/05/2008 MI5 HorrorFags attacked me as soon as I got into the house about ten minutes ago. They were totally absent outside the house. They continue to read my mind and repeat my thoughts. The Obscene English Pig voice just told me "you're lovely" in a low voice. He is a homosexual so that is something you would expect him to say. I find the Obscene English Pig and his cronies sickening. .................................................................................................... currently 17:09 15/05/2008 Obscene English Pig has been reading my mind and replying to my thoughts and swearing at me for about 30 minutes. It is unremitting and I look forward to leaving the house to avoid it. It is also much quieter than usual because MI5 are trying to pretend it's not really happening. The OEP continues to swear at me in a low voice. currently 19:52 15/05/2008 I have spent the last two hours outside where there is no mindcontrol. Just before I left MI5 were sexually abusing my dead father again, and just as I have got home the Obscene English Pig has started seriously sexually abusing him as soon as I got home. It is at low volume but the content is exactly the same as it has always been. currently 21:21 15/05/2008 MI5 HorrorFags just swore at me and told me "we won't leave you alone in Szczecin, we won't leave you alone ever". It looks like being a miserable trip. Last time MI5 set a member of my own family on me but after numerous complaints he will be absent this time. They also got some youths there to swear at me. Undoubtedly the MI5 homosexuals will not let me go just because I go to Poland for ten days. .................................................................................................... currently 13:10 16/05/2008 Last night I took a sleeping pill and went to sleep at 10pm to avoid the mindcontrol. Today I woke up at noon and MI5 HorrorFags have been swearing at me for the last hour on the mindcontrol. "Something wrong with that man" apparently. Something wrong with the MI5 HorrorFags and their perverted managers perhaps. Going out this afternoon so that should avoid the horrendous mindcontrol. currently 18:30 16/05/2008 Just got back from the psychiatrist, who assures me mindreading / mindcontrol cannot exist. As soon as I got home the Obscene English Pig attacked me on the mindcontrol with a volley of sexual abuse. Clearly mindcontrol does exist. The psychiatrist could not hear the evidence on computer audio file of the American shouting in 2005 over the gardens over the microwaves which both Ginsberg and Pat O'Driscoll of Islington MIND were able to discern. I think she's a little biased. As I write this the OEP continues to abuse me over the mindcontrol. As always it only happens within the house; it wasn't happening this afternoon. I told the MI5 HorrorFags "fuck off you perverts" and the OEP swore at me again. currently 19:06 16/05/2008 I just finished brushing my teeth, during which the MI5 HorrorFags viciously assaulted me, two voices, the Obscene English Pig and another which I think was the Evil Man. I told them they were working class homosexuals to which they replied with a formulaic "something wrong with that man". I told them they were "dirty buggers, sales pedes" to which the OEP kept asking "what does sales pedes mean?" Seems he doesn't understand French. They kept up the barrage all through the time I was brushing my teeth, when I am weakest, which they have not done for some time now. I think this is because tomorrow I am going to Poland. currently 20:42 16/05/2008 Written in the bath: They are viciously attacking me in the bath while I am at my weakest. The OEP keeps swearing at me and repeating my thougbts; "what does Orap mean?" There are two voices, the Pig and the Evil Man, who continue to abuse me and ask "what does sales pedes mean?" They kept up the barrage of mindreading/mindcontrol all the time I was in the bath, while I repeated the mantra "fuck off you faggots". Once I got out of the bath, they started seriously sexually abusing me. currently 20:54 16/05/2008 MI5 are keeping up the mindcontrol barrage, the Pig and the Evil Man, shouting "Orap" at me and "we're not ... " I'm not sure what I'm supposed to fill in there. I am packing for tomorrow and shouting "fuck off you damn faggots" at them. The Obscene English Pig kept swearing at me; it may have been a recording; while I said "fuck you, you damn pigs" at them. I asked "why don't you damn fags just piss off and go bugger some pakis instead" to which the Obscene English Pig made his customary swearing and said "we do bugger pakis". Today has been the worst day for mindcontrol in a long time, immediately before my trip to Poland. This is customary with MI5. When I was in Canada they created a panic with people shouting abuse outside my apartment some weeks before the actual trip. Now they have the mindcontrol terrorism technology from the Americans and they are using it to try to create a panic immediately before my trip to Poland, with constant mindcontrol mindreading, swearing and abuse, just as they were doing ten years ago in real life, but employing fewer real life resources. ....................................................................................................