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THE SWEAR WORDS

they keep addressing me as 'stupid man', 'stupid idiot'

swear words related to homosexuality

'something wrong with him' to change my mind about doing something, or to make me anxious

'we noticed that as well' when I have a thought, to make me feel they know everything about me


THE VOICES

- the voices change over a period of time; it isn't the same people all the way through

- the 'racing commentator' interrogation voice is at it again, yap yap yap, curiously emotionless
  annoying nasal American voice which talks very quickly

- some Anglo guy who said he had been to Oxford, then denied it

- hoarse voiced Anglo male who keeps swearing loudly


THE METHODS

- tell one thing, then rapidly say it isn't true and say the opposite

- tell me I'm going to die eg heart attack, then tell me they aren't able to do that

- they put a thought into my mind to 'try it on' and see if I react with Yes or No; sometimes they explicitly place the thought, then the
  thoughts Yes, No, Maybe as a test

- they put thoughts into my mind without a verbal element to try to influence my thinking

- repetition of the same recorded phrase hundreds of times, constantly

- incite me to say a few words, and then drop in the same offensive phrase, over and over again


THE EMOTIONS

there are a finite number of discrete emotions appear to be recorded and played back into my mind

they tell me the purpose of several/most of these is to make me anxious and unsure of myself;
the general purpose of their expressing emotions is to manipulate my thoughts / emotions, but for most of these I do not understand their purpose

- 'mysterious' emotion, which perhaps means they are bluffing and don't want something to happen; trying to discourage you

- 'cough' a bark which expresses contempt

- 'curious amusement' emotion

- 'careful' emotion which I don't understand the purpose of

- 'solemn belief' which expresses disbelief, taking the piss

- 'cross' similar to annoyed

- 'hopeful' when they try to get me to do something or not do something, they seem to express hopefulness for that result, as a bluff

- 'shutting up and not revealing everything' which I don't understand the purpose of

- 'embarrassment' emotion which I don't understand the purpose of

- 'softly spoken' emotion which I don't understand the purpose of

- 'considering your answer' emotion which I don't understand the purpose of

- 'insecure' emotion upon my answering a question, which I don't understand the purpose of

- 'pissed-off' emotion, which I don't understand the purpose of

- 'disturbed' emotion, which I don't understand the purpose of

- 'tender' emotion where they molest me

- 'serious' emotion, which I don't understand the purpose of

- 'effort to avoid anger' emotion, which I don't understand the purpose of

- 'bitterness' emotion, which I don't understand the purpose of

- 'monstrous anger' emotion, which I don't understand the purpose of

- 'tight smile' emotion, which I don't understand the purpose of


THE PHYSICAL METHODS

these are involuntary

- heart beat faster

- smell in nose

- salivate

- blood flow

- tongue moves involuntarily

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currently 09/03/2006

their method is ... they place a thought quietly / subconsciously in my mind, which I do not catch ... then my mind repeats the thought within itself...
then they catch the repeated thought, and make it "my fault" that the thought exists
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