NEITHER THE MICROWAVE ABSORBING MATERIAL NOR THE FLECTRON CONDUCTIVE FABRIC (GROUNDED) WORK FOR A CORDLESS PHONE THESE SHIELDING MATERIALS ARE USELESS THE HITEK SHIELDING SUIT IS ALSO USELESS AND DOES NOT WORK FOR A CORDLESS PHONE OR CELLPHONE TO PREVENT TRANSMISSION OR RECEPTION OR MINDCONTROL ....................................................................................................... currently 18:29 22/02/2007 MI5 have been attacking me over the mindcontrol for about three days, yesterday evening was pretty bad. A few minutes ago they started saying "one eight two seven" which was the time on my computer's clock. They are talking in quiet voices, almost menacing whispers, but the venom of the content is the same as usual. I think MI5 are upset because they are being served with process for the Florida action, which they will have 20 days to reply to. MI5 have just started up a formulaic repetition of "something wrong with that man", they are remarkably stupid people, all they do is repeat my words and repeat the same phrase hundreds of times. There is no meaningful conversation with them because they are too stupid to talk normally. I told them to leave me alone ... they answered "leave us alone, stupid man", then they said "what does grossly unfair mean?", taunting me. currently 20:14 22/02/2007 they briefly went silent ... then the nasty Anglo said "that is the sound of silence - do you want to hear our voices for the rest of your life?" ....................................................................................................... currently 19:13 23/02/2007 they abused me all afternoon until we went to Krysia's, then after I got home ... "what does potty mouthed mean?", because I told them they were potty mouthed because they kept abusing me. currently 00:10 24/02/2007 they were absent when we went to Krysia's flat, they were absent when I went to the cinema with Marek this evening, as soon as I got home the mindcontrol started up again, asking "what does potty mouthed mean?" They appear to have no insight because they are insulting themselves by repeating the phrase. currently 15:01 24/02/2007 they have been abusing me constantly over the mindcontrol, and now they have started sexually abusing al Fayed again, so it looks pretty serious. Process was served on the Florida case on Friday, and today Saturday mindcontrol have been obsessively repeating "stop picking on MI5". currently 20:15 24/02/2007 went to the cinema, no mindcontrol there ... as soon as I got home, the Obscene English Pig was quietly swearing "paranoid dupa, wanking himself" over and over again, continuously. one of them just said "we're not monsters, okay?" and there was a voice on the "if you leave us alone then we'll leave you alone" theme with the addition that "we're not lying this time" ... but they lied ten times a year ago and broke deals, so logically they are lying again this time. They have never kept a deal in the year and a half of mindcontrol, and they still demand my trust, which I have learned the hard way they will betray. I told them they were really stupid people, to which the Obscene English Pig answered "kurwa, we're not stupid okay?" They are very limited in their responses; all they do is swear, repeat my thoughts, and talk in formulaic phrases, they have no conversation, apart from lying all the time. I told them they were potty mouthed because they swear all the time, to which one of them replied "you swear all the time too" which is a lie because I do not swear. They demand my trust while attacking me and telling gross lies about me. Surely these MI5 agents are the most stupid and sociopathic people I have ever encountered. Again, "what does kick your ass on the way out mean?" because I hoped they would leave quickly this time. currently 18:31 25/02/2007 MI5 mindcontrol has been torturing me all day today, even while I slept this afternoon they were repeating their formulaic phrases into my mind. ....................................................................................................... currently 19:04 26/02/2007 they have been abusing me all day today, even when I went to the local Starbucks they followed me with their voices; when I got home there was an explosion of verbal violence, "we don't kill people, okay?" even though they are obviously trying to force me to commit suicide, so they are yet again lying, also they seriously sexually abused my dead father again. All this in response to the process on Florida case which was served on them last Friday. There are apparently no depths MI5 will not sink to because it is all unprovable. "we know what we're doing, other people have died" ... they indicated I still had a chance at life, if I would drop the legal actions against them. just as I wrote these words, they came on the mindcontrol saying "something wrong with that man", they don't want any of this conversation appearing publicly. "everyone dies eventually" ... they have started making death threats against me again, variously that they will/won't kill me. I think they are trying to induce a panic state in me, just the same as 2005. currently 20:30 26/02/2007 they have been swearing at me since I got home, telling me I am going to kill myself tonight. "if you kill yourself, we'll leave you alone yeah?" they ask "what does epitaph mean?", MI5 are making death threats against me again, same as 2005, telling me they will kill me unless I drop the legal actions. They have just told me "we kill people, that's it." they have been talking in quietly threatening voices all day. when I tell them to leave me alone, they say "stupid man, leave us alone". currently 12:30 27/02/2007 the MI5 mindcontrol attacked me as soon as I woke up ... I am now in the local Starbucks where they continue to attack me with telepathy and the usual words of abuse. I was here yesterday and it's near to the house so I shouldn't be surprised they can inflict their stuff here. they are violently swearing at me ... the Obscene English Pig keeps saying "crazy dupa" and similar. currently 13:27 27/02/2007 they have been swearing and abusing me since I got into the Starbucks, and they are sexually abusing my dead father again, which I find hurtful and disgusting. The mindcontrol are pigs. There is telepathy in the Starbucks. currently 17:05 27/02/2007 I have gone to the Glow Lounge wifi cafe, where mindcontrol have inflicted further incidents of telepathic mindcontrol, they are seriously sexually abusing me as they have done previously. That means there is telepathy in both Starbucks and Glow Lounge, which are the local wifi access points. currently 19:11 27/02/2007 got home, the mindcontrol started swearing at me as usual, then the Pig said "we're sorry okay, but we have to do our jobs". "what's buffering mean" ... the netradio control said "buffering". Then they started sexually abusing my dead father again, I feel sick. One of them just said "we're not enjoying this either okay?" which is a lie because they are sadistic monsters. ....................................................................................................... currently 13:07 28/02/2007 they have been quietly swearing at me since I woke up. I told them let's negotiate, I will drop the legal actions if you stop the mindcontrol, but they did not respond at all to my constructive suggestion, they simply kept swearing at me all the time. currently 16:57 28/02/2007 went to the Fine Line pub in Clapham, where they followed me with telepathic mindcontrol ... "what does top myself mean?" when I came home, they were trying to get me to drop the legal actions again, telling me "we won't break this one okay" in response to my stating that they had broken 10 deals in succession in 2005. currently 18:58 28/02/2007 they said "it's not your fault, okay?" I asked whose fault it was, they answered "Alan Holsworth". They have been trying to get me to agree to a deal whereby I drop the legal actions in return for silence, but I am mindful of the ten broken deals in late 2005, so I told them I would only agree if we met and negotiated in real life. They don't want to meet and have started swearing at me again. they just said "we are murderers, that's our job" ... they are trying to get me to kill myself. They have started sexually abusing al Fayed again, it's remarkable how little the murderers' methods have changed in the year and a half they have been abusing me. I asked "they were lying?" about their proposed deal, and MI5 mindcontrol answered "yes they were lying". They just said "we'll kill you tonight", they are making death threats same as Nov/2005. currently 20:31 28/02/2007 they have been abusing me since I got home, mindreading and thought infliction, extremely painful, they have made it clear they want me to kill myself quickly since only 15 days remain for MI5 to answer the Florida process. ....................................................................................................... currently 12:13 01/03/2007 the MI5 mindcontrol started abusing me as soon as I woke up, "what does top myself mean", they are trying to get me to kill myself. They also said "we're wasting our time", then I told them they were wasting my time, so they said "we're wasting *his* time?" with the implication that my time is not particularly valuable in their eyes. they have just started seriously abusing my dead father again. My father died in 1998 and the disgusting MI5 pigs are still abusing his memory. Mindcontrol are whispering quietly and venomously, this is not "less abuse" because they are talking in threatening whispers. currently 15:31 01/03/2007 the MI5 Horrorfags are talking in quiet voices, the way paedophiles talk to children. It is continuous abuse. there are at least two voices there ... "we're not going to tell you again, leave MI5 alone" ... but I can't deal with them because mindcontrol made 10 deals in 2005 all of which they immediately broke, so they are not to be trusted. I have asked to negotiate but they seem unwilling, they say "we *cannot* ..." and stop at that point, so they won't negotiate in real life. They just keep repeating their formulaic phrases over the mindcontrol, "something wrong with this guy" etc. currently 19:19 01/03/2007 went out around 4pm, there was telepathic mindcontrol at Caffe Nero in Balham, they said "kill myself"; went to Marylka's where there was also telepathic mindcontrol, I cried briefly; now at home where they are constantly talking to me in quiet voices; I asked can't we meet in real life to negotiate, and a voice which sounded like that of the Pig said "no you dupo". The problem with mindcontrol negotiations is that they broke ten agreements in a row in 2005, so I am hardly going to fall for that stunt again. the obscene English Pig just said "he enjoys hurting people", which is what I thought, the guy is a sadistic arse. ....................................................................................................... currently 06:17 02/03/2007 I have just woken up and MI5 mindcontrol voices were abusing me in my sleep. They are now continuously abusing me day and night. I tried to make a "one minute" deal with them, that if they stopped within one minute then I would not send any faxes to Parliament, but they immediately broke the deal, so I started another fax send to the House of Commons. currently 21:45 02/03/2007 they have been swearing at me all the time over the mindcontrol, "crazy kurwo" over and over again. I think this is in reaction to the Florida lawsuit. currently 11:39 03/03/2007 they have been talking mindcontrol even when I wear the microwave shield, and they just started sexually abusing my dead father again, they said they have to because they are trying to get me to commit suicide. ....................................................................................................... currently 19:02 03/03/2007 they have been abusing me all afternoon while I have been at home ... I took 30mg olanzapine and 10mg valium and they are still abusing me. They have been sexually abusing my dead father again for some time, repeating the same offensive / disgusting phrase. They have been telling me explicitly "kill yourself you stupid man". Just as I wrote these words, they started again with "something wrong with that man" repetitively. Then they said "you've pissed on MI5" in response to my telling them to piss off. They are talking to me in quiet voices the way paedophiles talk to children, and with menace. a nasty English voice is spitefully repeating "something wrong with that man". ....................................................................................................... currently 11:18 06/03/2007 I went to St George's A&E Sunday afternoon because the mindcontrol was so upsetting, they put me in St Thomas's hospital, where I have been for two days currently. MI5 have inflicted the mindcontrol torture while I am in hospital also. They said to me something about "let bygones be bygones" which is definitely them because that word is not part of my vocabulary. In short they don't want to have to answer to the Florida lawsuit. they just said "write to MI5, tell them you're ill", they want to terminate the Florida lawsuit on the basis of my ill health. I told them we should make a pact, the phrase "Faustian pact" came up and I didn't know what it was, so one of them told me "a Faustian pact is when you sell your soul to the devil", this was obviously them telling me this stuff which I didn't remember. currently 16:57 09/03/2007 I have been in St Thomas's hospital since Monday. There was mindcontrol in the room, but not outside in the ward. A moment ago after I got in from hospital, MI5 mindcontrol put a disgusting thought in my mind, subconsciously; they went quiet while they were doing so. It appears the mindcontrol has the means to access your subconscious thoughts without them being made consciously aware. This technology and method is incredibly foul and intended to make me kill myself. The microwave "shield it" fabric does not block MI5's shouting on the microwaves nor does it block mindreading. It appears that MI5 have acquired (probably from the Americans) a means of electronically raping people over the microwaves or whatever radiation method they are using, and there exists no defence against it. currently 20:04 10/03/2007 I have been in the West End today with some MI5 mindcontrol in public, on the tube train coming home they said "we'll kill you if we have to" and when I got home they were repeating "what does we'll kill you if we have to mean?" ....................................................................................................... currently 10:51 11/03/2007 they have been quietly swearing at me ever since I woke up. they are demanding trust and then betraying it ... they said they would not abuse my father again, then a little while later they started seriously sexually abusing him again over the mindcontrol. They are trying to get me to write to MI5 that I am incompetent to instruct lawyers, they tell me they will then leave me alone, but it is obvious they are lying and they will not leave me alone if I were to do that. currently 08:50 13/03/2007 Just got home from hospital. I had thought the hospital would be a place of safety from microwaves, but they inflict electronic telepathy and voices there as well. It is very serious because this morning they were abusing my dead father again while I was in hospital. There appears to be no place in the ward which is safe from the mindcontrol. currently 13:07 13/03/2007 they are again seriously sexually abusing my dead father over the mindcontrol and I am very hurt. ....................................................................................................... currently 20:08 20/03/2007 I got home from the hospital where MI5 were carrying out mindcontrol throughout the ward. They have been seriously sexually abusing my dead father again this evening. They have told me they want me dead, they don't want any more deals which they will break. They have also been seriously and constantly abusing me both in the ward and since I got home this evening. The Obscene English Pig has been particularly vocal this evening. currently 09:03 21/03/2007 woke up an hour ago, and they were seriously sexually abusing my dead father again. I woke up at 5am and they were abusing me also, so I took another zopiclone to go to sleep. It seems the abuse is present 24/7 now. I told them they were rude and sick and the Obscene English Pig started saying "he enjoys being ..." and then stopped. they also have other methods of mindcontrol, because they as well as talking to me made me feel a thought which was foreign to my mind. It appears the mindcontrol method is well developed. Also the Flectron conductive fabric when grounded does not work against mindreading or writing, but nor does it work against a cordless phone, so these shielded fabrics are quite useless against any microwaves. ....................................................................................................... currently 16:07 21/03/2007 I went around Clapham Common and to the Windmill pub this afternoon with the voices following, when I got back the Obscene English Pig was there, I asked why do MI5 employ the Pig, the others answered "the Pig kills people" and the Pig joins in with "enjoys killing people" and more sexual abuse. I told them they were horrible, they answered "not as horrible as you stupid man, most people would have committed suicide a long time ago". The deadline on the Florida lawsuit has been extended to Friday, and in the meantime MI5 are torturing me over the mindcontrol, trying to force me to kill myself quickly. The MI5 mindcontrol are apparently enjoying torturing me and the Obscene English Pig has been employing the "he enjoys" theme again today. I asked them if they killed other people using this method and they refused to answer. MI5 have been amusing themselves this afternoon playing their sociopathic games, they brought on some guy who they claimed was Stephen Lander, and they were obviously lying, same as in Nov/Dec 2005. MI5 are still obsessing about al Fayed, and I am telling them "piss off you ghastly horrorfags" but they are refusing to leave. MI5 are telling me that if I don't kill myself then they'll do the job themselves, they used the word "knifing" several times. ....................................................................................................... currently 20:35 21/03/2007 they just said "we're not stupid okay, we fuck people up so that they kill themselves" I thought about Eurostar and I thought about Hotbird satellite, they both being European, and MI5 mindcontrol almost had a conniption on the subject of Hotbird, they kept asking what does it mean. I told them they were both European, and that MI5 are stupid, but they kept asking "what is Hotbird". It looks as if British "intelligence" is sadly lacking. currently 10:45 22/03/2007 they have been getting at me ever since I woke up at 7.30am, they are still telling me to "leave us alone" and drop the Florida lawsuit; it is unremitting and constant. currently 11:30 22/03/2007 While reading a letter about Virgin credit card, the mindcontrol suddenly went quiet and they gave me to understand their motivation in persecuting me was that they were raping a virgin, because I have never been in a relationship, because of MI5's continuing harassment for 17 years. They are aggressive homosexuals and that is why they are doing it - they do not want me to have a girlfriend, and they have chased away those I attempted to establish a relationship with. currently 17:17 22/03/2007 I went to Brixton Road and saw the psychiatrist there. MI5 mindcontrol followed me and abused me in the pub before and after, and in the waiting room prior to the appointment. They seemed very angry that I was to stay in London under the care of the Home Treatment Team. I came home a few minutes ago and cried, but MI5 carried on talking to me in quiet voices. I just want to be rid of them and for them to leave but they refuse to go. After I cried, MI5 mindcontrol resumed their relentless hideous verbal sexual abuse, but in quieter voices. While I was in the pub in Brixton, I remembered that while in Paris a year ago I had seen two French police officers going into a cinema after someone and they asked the staff for "l'homme Americain". In the pub, MI5 mindcontrol obsessively repeated "what does l'homme Americain mean", and when I told them I did not know what they meant, they explained that "l'homme Americain" was me, because MI5 were stalking me all over London, and I was the victim of their surveillance. I had not guessed the meaning of that phrase and the mindcontrol had to explain it to me. ....................................................................................................... currently 18:42 23/03/2007 The clonazepam knocked me out this afternoon and I was asleep all day. As soon as I woke up, the Obscene English Pig in a quiet voice immediately set about seriously sexually abusing my dead father just as he always has. However the abuse does not seem to occur while I am asleep. I told them to stop torturing me, MI5 replied hypocritically "stop torturing al Fayed", they have used the name "al Fayed" to refer to themselves. MI5 mindcontrol are also seriously sexually abusing al Fayed, and the torture is constant while I am awake. MI5 also have some method of subconsciously introducing thoughts into my mind, they have quietly spoken thoughts which I have caught in my mind, and they are trying to get me to consciously think those thoughts to prove it is "my fault" that I have thought them, so they can use them against me to abuse me. Again this is a horrible torture method. I do not understand MI5's obsession with al Fayed. They are supposed to be going after al Qaeda but they have not mentioned terrorism even once, instead they have been childishly repeating "al Fayed" every chance they get, and they see him as the enemy to be defeated. There seem to be some very childish and stupid people working for the Security Service. currently 17:20 24/03/2007 I spent the afternoon asleep, and just woke up. I have no peace even when I sleep because I heard the voice of the Obscene English Pig just as I was waking, saying "he split his sides laughing". They had been encouraging me to masturbate while I was asleep and I had thought "no, it's too dangerous" because they would attack me for it, hence the English pig's comment about "split his sides laughing". So the lesson is that MI5 sexually abuse me even when I am asleep. The mindcontrol has been present for much of the time I am awake, but currently it seems to have gone quiet. ....................................................................................................... currently 11:02 25/03/2007 Mindcontrol was fairly quiet until the Home Treatment Team left, then they started seriously sexually abusing me again. currently 19:13 25/03/2007 MI5 mindcontrol have been following me around town today, in the cinema they seriously verbally abused my dead father again, then I went to Caffe Nero on Piccadilly where they seriously verbally sexually abused al Fayed. On the train coming home they were again seriously abusive. In other words there is no change from their usual behaviour. Also the mindcontrol technology is mobile, since they can be bothered to stalk me all over London with their machines. I have been feeling unwell this evening, so in response the Obscene English Pig has been swearing at me over the mindcontrol, calling me "paranoid dupa". As readers will have gathered the OEP is the biggest "dupa" anyone is likely to meet. currently 21:34 25/03/2007 MI5 mindcontrol have been relentlessly and unceasingly sexually abusing the memory of my dead father all evening. They have to make a response to the Florida lawsuit and they are abusing me in order to stop the action. currently 11:03 26/03/2007 I just woke up, and MI5 mindcontrol immediately started (quietly) seriously sexually abusing al Fayed again. I told them they were sick people. ....................................................................................................... currently 19:01 27/03/2007 MI5's mindcontrol Obscene English Pig has been abusing me again, calling me "paranoid dupa" and telling me "my prick down your throat". Earlier today they were sexually abusing my parents. I feel depressed because the sexual abuse is unremitting over the mindcontrol. currently 20:35 27/03/2007 They are using intrusive thoughts ... they just put another obscene thought abusing my father into my mind ... they are pretending they have gone away but they haven't really ... I will have to think about constructing a shielded room against their electromagnetic radation/microwaves. currently 13:36 28/03/2007 The Obscene English Pig has been swearing at me today, calling me a "dupa". The OEP has real problems with his bottom. currently 19:16 28/03/2007 They have been swearing at me on and off today, using intrusive thoughts, and they just placed a seriously sexually abusive thought towards my dead father in my mind. currently 10:06 29/03/2007 They have been verbally sexually abusing me since I woke up. The meds do not work. ....................................................................................................... currently 19:05 29/03/2007 I just phoned the Florida lawyer who told me MI5's lawyers had served a lot of papers on him, to be replied to in 20 days. His secretary told me they had sent the papers to me by postal mail two days ago. After the call the Obscene English Pig kept swearing "wanker" at me and launched into a tirade of sexual abuse over the mindcontrol. currently 19:16 30/03/2007 MI5 mindcontrol are calling themselves "al Fayed" ... they just said "al Fayed's sick of your name, can't you just leave us alone" in relevance to the Florida lawsuit. They have a real obsession with al Fayed, so that they use his name to denote themselves. The sadistic Obscene English Pig in particular keeps on harping on about al Fayed and repeating his name as a taunt. currently 11:39 31/03/2007 I told MI5 they were homosexuals, so they used a seriously sexual term of abuse against my dead father again. However the abuse seems less continuous today. currently 16:26 31/03/2007 They just seriously sexually abused my dead father again. It seems something of a game to them. currently 20:38 31/03/2007 Home Treatment Team (Tony Quayle) came round this evening, there was no mindcontrol prior to the visit, as soon as they left there was massive sexual abuse mindcontrol. I phoned HTT later and spoke to Quayle and insisted that the mindcontrol was real. ....................................................................................................... currently 10:49 01/04/2007 MI5 mindcontrol just said "we will leave your father alone if you leave us alone okay", they don't want the Florida lawsuit going ahead. currently 11:51 01/04/2007 The Home Treatment Team just left, and MI5 mindcontrol soon after shouted a sexually abusive reference to my father. On this occasion I did not phone the HTT base. I keep telling them "I'm mentally ill, leave me alone" to which MI5 mindcontrol responds "leave us alone". When I play music on the net radio, MI5 mindcontrol takes advantage by mixing their filthy abuse with the music, at the "noise level" so I cannot be sure whether they are or aren't abusing me. This just happened a moment ago. currently 15:36 01/04/2007 I was upset so I called HTT, the mindcontrol was quiet during the call, as soon as the call had finished the Obscene English Pig was seriously sexually abusive to my dead father. currently 17:57 01/04/2007 they extracted the thought "son et lumiere" from my mind, and kept repeating it over and over again, the intention being to annoy me and to prove they can read my thoughts; they have done similar things on many occasions. They also seriously sexually abused my dead father who passed away in 1998. They have done this numerous times. I do not understand their purpose in sexually molesting a decent man who died in 1998. These MI5 agents seem to be sexual deviants and sadists who will abuse anyone as long as they are employed and paid. ....................................................................................................... currently 19:59 01/04/2007 HTT were here for at least 30 minutes today, as soon as they left MI5 mindcontrol started abusing me "paranoid dupa, the whole story" currently 09:27 02/04/2007 I just woke up, MI5 mindcontrol talking to me, I asked them if they couldn't arrange my death because I did not want to commit suicide, the name Hilda Murrell was mentioned because MI5 had apparently killed her in a bungled robbery, the Obscene English Pig kept repeating "who's Hilda Murrell?" currently 10:02 02/04/2007 I just spoke to a shielding company, and MI5 responded by placing a long word "fag" in my mind. They don't want the shielding to be installed. They are also being seriously sexually abusive to al Fayed again, they keep sexual abuse all the time. currently 11:10 02/04/2007 The familiar pattern of the HTT leaving, immediately followed by the Obscene English Pig starting a chant of "paranoid dupa". currently 17:15 02/04/2007 MI5 have been talking to me since I got back, they asked "what is the Polish word for come?" because they wanted to use it as a sexual swear word, but I do not know the word. They have been seriously sexually abusing my father again since I got home this afternoon. They are shameless because they think they will never be caught. I phoned HTT because I was so upset by the abuse and they told me to take extra clonazepam for the stress. currently 20:31 02/04/2007 I cried because of the sexual abuse of my father, and phoned HTT. currently 07:28 03/04/2007 I woke up 2.30am and could not get back to sleep, hideous mindcontrol voices sexually molesting my dead father, I phoned the HTT. The meds are not working and there is nothing the HTT can do to make the mindcontrol go away. Obviously the mindconrol is real so the meds would not have any effect. ....................................................................................................... currently 16:10 03/04/2007 I have been out all day and there has been no mindcontrol outside the house. Later after the HTT left there was an explosion of mindcontrol abuse, I phoned the HTT who told me there was nothing the doctors or nurses on HTT could do against technological mindcontrol, currently 06:24 04/04/2007 I have just woken up and the mindcontrol has already started ... I told them please leave me alone, they answered "please leave MI5 alone" The Obscene English Pig started grunting "you dupa". I went back to sleep. 10am was taken by HTT for ECG. Mindcontrol was absent while I was at hospital. When I got home mindcontrol started again. currently 17:44 04/04/2007 went to Streatham today to see social worker. Massive mindcontrol at home after I got back. They have been telling me to kill myself. I am trying to order some microwave protective shielding to see if that will do any good, but it is a slow process. currently 18:35 04/04/2007 they are being sexually aggressive and abusive towards me over the mind control. the HTT came and went, and MI5 mindcontrol immediately began being sexually abusive over the mindcontrol again as soon as they had gone. currently 09:25 05/04/2007 I just woke up and MI5 mindcontrol immediately started the sexual verbal abuse again. I think it was absent while I was asleep. I was on the phone for 30 minutes during which mindcontrol was absent. It started again when the phone control stopped, the Obscene English Pig swore at me. ....................................................................................................... [10:28] it is very scary and painful [10:28] can you try and keep yourself occupied at all? [10:29] yes, I try, but they follow me, even outside [10:29] it must be overwhelming [10:29] it's horrible, words cannot express it [10:29] i understand [10:30] they are reading my mind and twisting my thoughts and talking to me inside my head [10:30] words can often not do justice to these situations we find ourselves in [10:30] I have a transcript which I am going to ask the doctor to read [10:30] that's a good idea [10:31] it is grossly horrible and unfair, I have done nothing wrong [10:31] I complained against MI5 and for that they torture me [10:31] i know, you will get through this furr, with some help [10:32] yes, the HTT see me twice a day [10:32] that's great [10:32] once in the morning and once in the evening [10:32] do you find it helps? [10:32] it does a bit yes, that someone is supporting me [10:33] that is impportant [10:33] I just want the mindcontrol to go away and leave me alone, they are sadistic [10:33] i feel the same way about my treatment team [10:33] have they talked about changing your meds? [10:34] they are in the middle of changing my meds to sulpiride [10:34] what do you do to control your own mind furriner? i have fears that others are controlling my mind [10:34] it's tough to deal with [10:34] ah, i hope that works for you [10:34] I am on 800 sulpiride and 20mg olanzapine [10:34] i am not familiar with sulpride [10:35] I try to control my mind but there are glitches, and the mindcontrol crow over the glitches when they read my thoughts, they keep repeating the words [10:35] ah. i'm sometimes in the same situation [10:35] i have "flaws" that others amplifiy [10:35] I cannot completely control my thoughts, and they read my thoughts and gloat over them, they keep repeating them [10:36] it reminds me of my own weakness in controlling myself [10:36] there is a character called the Obscene English Pig who swears all the time, he is the worst ....................................................................................................... currently 19:49 05/04/2007 they have been abusing me constantly on the mindcontrol since I got in at 6pm ... "we want you dead, that's right, we want you gone from our island" They have been mainly sexually abusing me, and the pills do not stop the abuse, which is done by technological mindcontrol. there was no mindcontrol in the West End, outside, but I was very depressed and went to the Home Treatment Team base in the evening where they offered me words of encouragement but no solution. currently 09:35 06/04/2007 I just woke up and they have been abusing my father (non-sexually this time) ever since I woke up. I told them they were sociopaths. I just went outside to the cafe and there was no mindcontrol. The mindcontrol restarted "horrible man" as soon as I got into the house. Also they tried to make a deal with me whereby they would leave me alone over Easter if I did not progress the legal complaints; and then they immediately broke the detail, to which I had agreed. As always they demand trust and immediately betray it. They abused me constantly while I was having a bath. Soon after, an Anglo voice said "let's finish this guy off". Now they have started with "he enjoys it", I hate the abuse they heap on me and the sociopaths are insisting I "enjoy" their abuse. currently 17:25 06/04/2007 I just went out for the afternoon to avoid the mindcontrol. They inflicted mindcontrol on me as soon as I got home, and the Obscene English Pig continued to abuse me as I cried. MI5 mindcontrol about the HTT "because we're paid a lot more money than they are, that's why we're here to kill you and they're not here to save you", because the HTT had refused to come to my house any further. They have just started obscenely abusing al Fayed again, as they always do. I cried a second time this evening. MI5 made clear that they couldn't care less that I was crying, that their intent was to torture me to death. ....................................................................................................... currently 09:10 07/04/2007 MI5 mindcontrol started abusing me as soon as I woke up, the pig said "paranoid dupo", I prayed for 30 minutes and that seemed to drive them away. The Obscene English Pig has been quietly swearing "paranoid dupa" at me so it goes into my subconscious, with only occasional conscious awareness of the words. when the Home Treatment Team were here there was peace and quiet; as soon as they left, MI5 started abusing me. I went to the pub, there was peace and quiet; as soon as I got home there was abuse. MI5 said "we do really care whether you live or die ... we want you to die" currently 23:00 07/04/2007 saw Julian this evening ... after returning home MI5 continued reading my mind and I cried severely ... they said they wanted the legal action against MI5 dropped and there is no way around that. I asked them "please don't read my mind" and they replied they wanted the legal action dropped. I just prayed and cried again while MI5 mindcontrol told me I was a "sick puppy". ....................................................................................................... currently 17:24 08/04/2007 there was brief mindcontrol at home this morning, I went to Marylka's for Easter Sunday. MI5 inflicted some mindcontrol/swearing at Marylka's flat and I left early and went to Caffe Nero where there was no mindcontrol. I have now returned home. After I returned home they continued to abuse my dead father, so I escaped to a local netcafe where there was no mindcontrol. Still mindcontrol occurs almost entirely around the house. currently 10:55 10/04/2007 I spent last night in a hotel at Heathrow to escape the mindcontrol torture. However it was still present in the form of low voices/whispers. The Obscene English Pig kept repeating "paranoid dupa" this morning which is forcing me to leave the room. currently 14:56 10/04/2007 I have returned home to the MI5 mindcontrol, I keep praying the Lord's Prayer while the Obscene English Pig calls me a "sick puppy". They are sexually molesting my dead father again and they are relentless and constant. currently 18:07 10/04/2007 MI5 mindcontrol just explained that they're not really sadists, because they have a "job to do". They have resumed their perverted sexual abuse. ....................................................................................................... currently 14:47 11/04/2007 I have been out of the house (POSK) and there was no mindcontrol until I got back home, at which point MI5 kept saying "it was so funny" without explaining what it was that was "so funny". I was terrified to come home because this is where the mindcontrol happens, and I took clonazepam immediately after getting back. currently 16:12 11/04/2007 they were quiet for about an hour, now they've started again with "something wrong with that man". I asked them to please not read my mind but they are ignoring my request. They are continuing to abuse me so I am leaving the house until 6pm. They have started the "lovely you are" thread where they talk like child molesters. currently 18:00 11/04/2007 at around 5pm they attacked me again and I left the house until 6pm, for the local wine bar where there is no mindcontrol. As soon as I got home the Obscene English Pig attacked me again calling me a "sick puppy", which reflects on him rather than me. I thought "these people are scaring me with their mindcontrol" to which the Obscene English Pig replied "paranoid dupa". I am afraid of them, which is why I take the clonazepam, but that only partly helps the fear, and it does not stop or affect the mindcontrol. currently 12:35 12/04/2007 I have just got back from Brixton, there was no mindcontrol outside. currently 17:39 12/04/2007 Just got back from Marysia's with my mother, took all my meds including clonazepam because of fear of mindcontrol at home. ....................................................................................................... currently 12:03 13/04/2007 MI5 mindcontrol are abusing me again this morning, reading my mind, asking "what does horsing around mean?" I do not know whether that it my thought or whether it is their thought they have placed in my mind to pretend it is mine. I am about to go have a bath and they often attack me when I am in the bath. currently 13:24 13/04/2007 MI5 have just started verbally sexually molesting the Florida lawyer who is dealing with my case. currently 18:15 13/04/2007 It has been quiet the last few hours, a few minutes ago I thought the shielding would "kick the bums out" to which the Obscene English Pig angrily responded "what does kick the bums out mean?" and there was minor mindcontrol abuse for a while. Yesterday afternoon the shielding guy came round to measure the spare room and I think MI5 mindcontrol may have been reacting to that visit, particularly in their quietness today, because they do not want the shielding to go ahead. Now they have started abusing me with severity, probably due to the expectation that the shielding would "kick the bums out". I find the pain of mindreading unbearable, to which the Obscene English Pig answered "kill yourself". ....................................................................................................... currently 09:56 14/04/2007 they have started verbally sexually molesting me as soon as I woke up. currently 17:20 14/04/2007 went to Chinatown with mother, there was no mindcontrol. MI5 mindcontrol resumed when I got home two hours ago. MI5 proposed a truce for no activity from them today and no complaints from me, which they have just broken by sexually abusing al Fayed yet again. I don't understand the point of their proposing a truce and then breaking it. currently 20:07 14/04/2007 They have been quieter today, but I cried when I got home, from fear of the MI5 mindcontrol. The Obscene English Pig has been talking to me again this evening. They seem angry because of the letters I have written to my UK lawyers urging them to issue a lawsuit. currently 11:26 15/04/2007 The Home Treatment Team were here half an hour ago, prior to which there had been no mind control. As soon as they left the Obscene English Pig started repeating my thoughts, so I am now escaping from the house for the afternoon because there is no mindcontrol outside the house. currently 15:04 15/04/2007 Just got back from Marylka's where there was mindcontrol, OEP kept repeating "paranoid dupa" all the time. The OEP kept childishly repeating the same phrase over and over again, so I thought "dzieci zwariowane" and the OEP asked "what does dzieci zwariowane mean?" It means that MI5's agents are behaving like idiot children. I asked MI5 if they didn't sympathise with a disabled cripple, and the nasty Anglo answered "not when they defecate on their own country", presumably in reference to the current lawsuits against MI5. ....................................................................................................... currently 17:46 15/04/2007 they have started seriously sexually abusing my dead father again. I am taking more clonazepam for the fear. currently 20:07 15/04/2007 MI5 seriously sexually abused the memory of my dead father again, so I left the house for a couple of hours. I have come back to the house and called the Home Treatment Team, but MI5 are still talking to me, it is impossible to get rid of them, they are obsessive homosexuals. I cannot sleep so I am taking extra zopiclone. ....................................................................................................... currently 11:01 16/04/2007 I am about to leave the house, and MI5 have just started sexually verbally abusing my dead father again, they are quite obsessive on this point. currently 16:40 16/04/2007 I have got back from Brixton, the mindcontrol is still abusing me, but less severely than previously. I have taken lots of clonazepam for fear. the OEP keeps calling me a "paranoid dupa" which reflects on him rather than me. currently 20:09 16/04/2007 The MI5 mindcontrol have been quietly abusing me this evening, I took 4mg clonazepam and 10mg diazepam for the fear, and 15mg zopiclone to try to get to sleep. They are relentless in their abuse and medication makes no difference. currently 11:30 17/04/2007 MI5 mindcontrol have been quietly abusing me "paranoid dupa" for about two hours now, while I have been waiting for the home treatment team. They kept calling me "paranoid dupa" while the HTT were here, so presumably they are not afraid of the HTT's presence. currently 18:04 17/04/2007 I just woke up crying a few minutes ago, however there has been relatively little mindcontrol activity this afternoon. currently 10:06 18/04/2007 MI5 mindcontrol has started early with verbal sexual abuse while I prayed the Lord's Prayer. currently 16:03 18/04/2007 MI5 mindcontrol has been present since I got home an hour ago, a mixture of the usual "dupa" and sexual obscenities. I have taken my meds early in the hope of an afternoon nap to avoid the mindcontrol. currently 19:29 18/04/2007 I was chased out of the house two hours ago by the Obscene English Pig chanting "paranoid dupa", now I have taken zopiclone to try to get to sleep early. currently 03:21 19/04/2007 Obscene English Pig woke me up a few minutes ago with a chant of "my penis in your mouth", I am trying to get back to sleep. ....................................................................................................... currently 11:06 19/04/2007 They have been swearing quietly and repeating my thoughts all morning. However the content does not seem to be too violent. currently 15:45 19/04/2007 I have just got home from seeing the pdoc where there was no mindcontrol. At home there is as always massive mindcontrol with the Obscene English Pig repeating "paranoid dupa" hundreds of times. I asked "can't you just leave me alone" and the OEP answered "can't you just leave MI5 alone". They have made clear they are consistently raping me, they said "the Pig is your boyfriend" currently 20:33 19/04/2007 after the HTT went, the Obscene English Pig kept repeating "paranoid dupo" over and over, it seems to the only thing he ever says. It is probably a recording. They also have a recording of an American saying "something wrong with that guy". I am trying to sleep and I cannot get to sleep because of the constant verbal abuse over the mindcontrol. currently 08:04 20/04/2007 Just woke up ... they said "we don't care, we want you dead" ... they don't want any agreement. currently 10:11 20/04/2007 OEP said "MI5 and their lackeys hate you because you're a paranoid dupa" ... the Obscene English Pig has a real bottom fixation. currently 18:12 20/04/2007 I have spent all day outside and mindcontrol has been absent; as soon as I got home they were there with the usual sexual abuse including one about Royalty which I will not repeat, because I did not wish to 'sully' the reputation of the royal family with MI5's vile sexual abuse. So then the Obscene English Pig repeated at least a hundred times "what does sully mean?" It seems that MI5 have not got out of the habit of abusing the royals as they abused Diana. currently 18:50 20/04/2007 Mindcontrol has been constant from MI5's machine while I am in the house, so I am escaping to the nearby wine bar where there is no mindcontrol. ....................................................................................................... currently 09:31 21/04/20075 I woke up 30 minutes ago and MI5 mindcontrol immediately set about sexually abusing my dead father again. currently 21/04/20075 5pm I went to a hotel to avoid the mindcontrol. Unfortunately they caught up with me around 5pm, calling me "horrid little man". I do not know how they were able to find me (I used an alias) and they would not tell me. The OEP started calling me "paranoid dupa" again, when I asked why they had bothered following me to this hotel at Heathrow. All I wanted was one day of peace and quiet, and the obsessive MI5 HorrorFags followed me to the Heathrow hotel with their mindcontrol equipment. currently 21/04/20075 8pm I asked "how much do they get paid for this nonsense?" they answered "a large amount of money", I don't know why they were being honest. currently 13:28 22/04/2007 I got home from the hotel 30 minutes ago and MI5 mindcontrol immediately started with sexual abuse. currently 14:05 22/04/2007 I just briefly cried, while the Obscene English Pig obsessively repeated several times "al Fayed". My crying seems to excite the Obscene English Pig, he kept repeating "al fayed made you cry". currently 14:55 22/04/2007 MI5 mindcontrol, in particular the Obscene English Pig but also other English voices, are compulsively repeating "al Fayed". I told them I had no interest in him nor he in my case, so why don't they take it out on him instead, but they have no answer to that question. I have had enough of the mindcontrol thuggery and am going to a nearby pub to escape. ....................................................................................................... currently 17:59 22/04/2007 I am back from the pub and MI5 are employing severe verbal sexual abuse again over the mindcontrol. currently 19:15 22/04/2007 the Home Treatment Team have been and gone, and after they left MI5 mindcontrol viciously attacked my request for "peace and quiet". currently 08:45 23/04/2007 I have just woken up and MI5 mindcontrol are there already, OEP called me "crazy dupa". MI5 mindcontrol are being verbally sexually abusive again. I had a look at the Hearing Voices Network website, at which point the OEP called me a "sick puppy" and they employed the recording of the American saying "something wrong with the guy". currently 10:19 23/04/2007 The mindcontrol were just sexually abusive towards my dead father again. They ask "what does horse laugh mean?" They keep talking to me and scaring me and I have just taken more clonazepam for the fear. currently 11:47 23/04/2007 They said "stupid man, why don't you just leave al Fayed alone?" they are referring to themselves as al Fayed, they want the Florida lawsuit against MI5 dropped. currently 12:03 23/04/2007 A few moments ago while I was eating lunch one of the horrible MI5 mindcontrol voices said "al Fayed raped your father, kill al Fayed, he raped your father". They are referring to themselves as "al Fayed". currently 15:13 23/04/2007 I went to the Barbican, returned to the house very scared. I am currently trying the care worker's suggestion that I play loud music to blot out the mindcontrol. It is partly working, although some of the abuse is still getting through, because MI5 have upped the volume of their mindcontrol to compensate. At least the music is a distraction from the remorseless mindcontrol voices. However it is a feature of mindcontrol that when there is no music, the volume of mindcontrol is low; when music is played, the volume of mindcontrol is increased to compete with the music to ensure the mindcontrol is still heard. currently 16:29 23/04/2007 The music is not working... their clear words are still getting through, and as usual they are abusing my dead father. They are able to inflict sounds and thoughts directly on my brain, and the audio system does not drown out the hateful mindcontrol. It takes away some of the emotion impact because it gives you something else to think about. The mindcontrol is still completely clear though, they are swearing at me and they are abusing my dead father who has been gone nine years. They are currently repeating "we are fucking your dead father". Now they say "we have lost this man". ....................................................................................................... currently 17:20 23/04/2007 I told MI5 they were sociopaths ... they answered "we don't care about your father or your mother". MI5 are protected ... "that's right", they told me "don't forget the nasty smile". The music from the audio system is making no change to the mindcontrol ... they are still able to talk direct to my mind and read my mind. HTT refused to come out to see me this evening ... MI5 mindcontrol repeated "you sick fuck" after the call. I asked why MI5 had targeted me, they could have targeted thousands of people, and mindcontrol merely repeated the mantra "you sick fuck". It is impossible to reason with these people because all they understand and employ is obscene abuse. Turning up the music level has turned out to be a serious mistake because it allows the mindcontrol to shout much more loudly at me. currently 19:29 23/04/2007 I cried again in front of my mother who is very worried. HTT refused to come out to see me this evening, they will see me tomorrow morning. ....................................................................................................... currently 08:58 24/04/2007 MI5 mindcontrol started again soon after I woke up. They are reading my mind and repeating my thoughts and swearing at me. I have been praying repetitively while MI5 swear at me "crazy dupa". currently 17:43 24/04/2007 I have been in the Clubhouse all day, there was no mindcontrol, as soon as I got home the mindcontrol started, although it has now strangely gone quiet again. currently 19:32 24/04/2007 I have tried playing loud music again and it only makes things worse because MI5 keep shouting/swearing at me using voice-to-skull which the loud music does not counteract. Ironically things were quiet and got much worse continuously when I started playing loud music. currently 16:24 25/04/2007 I have tried playing loud music through headphones and the OEP's voice still came through saying "we're fucking your father", so I told the Obscene English Pig that I was fucking HIS father and he seemed to get the message and leave. I also told the Obscene English Pig "I bet there are lots of other people who tell you you're not wanted" ... response, nothing. I asked "why don't you people just leave? is it because you're paid so much? are you whores?" MI5 answered "no we're not happy being described as whores" The music through earphones option doesn't seem to be working, they are still screaming abuse down my earholes. This is only while I am at home, when I was at the clubhouse this morning and afternoon there was no mindcontrol. There is also the subtle subconscious abuse, where they shout silently so my conscious mind does not hear them, but my conscious mind does register what they say. currently 17:33 25/04/2007 the headphones are not working ... MI5 are being as disgusting as always over the mindcontrol ... they have a method of directly creating thoughts in your mind and headphones do not work against their method. in response to my "leave me alone please" they say "leave us alone ... please" they want to stop the Florida lawsuit. "Yes, we're sick ... you can write that down in your weblog, MI5 is sick, we have to be" I told them "I haven't done anything wrong", they replied "you haven't done anything right" meaning I haven't killed myself yet. the headphones are not helping at all ... MI5 are using direct to skull methods which bypass the headphones and talk directly to my mind, with the customary swearing and abuse. However while I was at the Clubhouse this afternoon there was no mindcontrol, so going out is obviously salvation from the mindcontrol abuse. they just told me "kurwa, we're not going to leave until you're dead". This is the British Empire on which the sun never set, using American technology to pursue the mentally ill people just as the Nazis did. currently 18:16 25/04/2007 The MI5 HorrorFags have started sexually abusing al Fayed again, despite my listening to loud music on headphones. The headphones make no difference. 'physical escape won't work this time' they just told me ....................................................................................................... currently 10:20 27/04/2007 I had a major argument with my mother yesterday because she won't allow a shielded room to be installed in our house. This morning MI5 have started abusing me again over the mindcontrol. currently 17:50 27/04/2007 a few minutes ago MI5 said "we're not raping you, we're raping your father". I asked to meet them tomorrow Saturday to sort things out, and they refused, "we won't meet tomorrow no". they said "we don't care ... yeah, this is what we're paid to do" and they kept calling me "horrible man" when in fact it is they who are horrible men. currently 08:42 28/04/2007 they have been swearing at me since I woke up 30 minutes ago, "paranoid dupa", also abusing al Fayed as usual. I was thinking about Marylka and that she could die soon, and I thought "unfortunately yeah", to which MI5 mindcontrol responded "what does unfortunately yeah mean?" They were abusing me constantly while I was in the bath. I tried to talk my mother into allowing a shielded room to stop the mindcontrol torture but she continues to refuse. currently 10:34 28/04/2007 "we'll roger your father if you don't top yourself now" ... they are instructing me to commit suicide ... my mother refuses to allow a shielded room to be built. They have started sexually abusing my dead father again. currently 17:10 28/04/2007 I have been in Clapham Common all day and there was no mindcontrol. As soon as I got back they restarted the threats to "roger your dead father", so I told MI5 mindcontrol they were sick and to go roger their own dead fathers. ....................................................................................................... currently 08:59 29/04/20075 they have abused me since I woke up an hour ago ... "we will not leave you alone until you leave us alone" ... but that is lies because during 1990-95 they were severely abusing me and I had no idea it was MI5. Also we tried 10 deals in late 2005 whereby I ceased complaints, and MI5 broke every deal by not going away. currently 29/04/2007 Went to Heathrow hotel. Mindcontrol torture started as soon as I entered the room. I told them I wanted peace and quiet, they said "we'll give you peace and quiet in your grave, yeah". I cried in the evening at the hotel room. currently 10:27 30/04/2007 I have got home from the hotel. The voices have started soon after I got home, but quietly so far. They have started verbally sexually molesting me again. There is less abuse this morning but I am afraid of the MI5 mindcontrol. The OEP just called me a "paranoid dupa" again, reflecting more on himself perhaps. Then he sexually abused al Fayed again, the usual. I told MI5 I loved my father, they replied "paranoid kurwa, you hated your father" which was a hurtful lie. A few minutes later they seriously sexually abused my dead father again, seemingly almost routinely, without any remorse - I think they are using recordings. currently 13:43 30/04/2007 MI5 mindcontrol were quiet before the HTT arrived, and during the discharge meeting. As soon as HTT left, they exploded with noise. "we're not going ... the Home Treatment Team have gone, we're not going" MI5 kept asking "what does raped and abandoned mean?", which had been my thought that MI5 had raped me mentally, and HTT were abandoning me to further mental rape without any support. ....................................................................................................... currently 16:42 30/04/2007 the Florida suit needs an updated complaint, and following my reading of the email MI5 mindcontrol exploded with "leave al fayed alone", in other words drop the case against MI5. they said "stupid man, why are you doing this to yourself" re the Florida case, I answered "join the darkside, I am your father Luke" to which they replied "very funny". currently 17:42 30/04/2007 they verbally sexually abused my dead father while I brushed my teeth. My social worker said to me today that it doesn't matter if MI5 abuse my dead father, because his ashes cannot be insulted and his soul is similarly free from earthly insults. My mother previously said much the same thing. I was very hurt when MI5 insulted my dead father but I am beginning to see that my mother and the social worker are both right and that I should disregard these assaults on my father's reputation. ....................................................................................................... currently 10:17 01/05/2007 they have been abusing me all morning over mindcontrol ... currently the Obscene English Pig shouted "he's a paranoid dupa" and it didn't sound like a recording this time. currently 16:29 01/05/2007 I have been at the Clubhouse all afternoon, there was no mindcontrol. As soon as I got home, the Obscene English Pig started sexually abusing al Fayed, and continued a ferocious attack while I brushed my teeth. they are currently repeating the phrase "paranoid dupa" dozens of times trying to force it into my mind. currently 09:55 02/05/2007 since about 8am with a pause around 9am, they have been tormenting me, the Obscene English Pig is currently repeating "paranoid dupa". currently 14:53 02/05/2007 at the Clubhouse they were absent. As soon as I got home they started. "kurwa, we're really not enjoying this at all" I called them "perverts" they answered "yeah you got that bit right". I took all my meds as soon as I got home. I told them to learn Urdu and practice their mindcontrol on a muslim boyfriend, to which they replied "we're sick of this man". they have just started the formulaic sexual abuse of al Fayed I tried playing netradio music quietly through headphones, but that merely resulted in MI5 modulating the volume of their response according to the volume of the music; so it was only slightly louder than the music. Their responses (mostly "dupa" from the Obscene English Pig) were completely audible. conversation with Florida lawyer, who told me we would probably lose ... furious reaction from MI5 mindcontrol, "piss off", seems their continued employment is in jeopardy. MI5 mindcontrol are furiously shouting at me, and I am terrified. The clonazepam is not preventing the feelings of terror. currently 16:35 02/05/20075 I am so terrified of their shouting that I am leaving the house. currently 17:14 02/05/2007 I was so terrified in the pub that I came home and took 20mg valium. They are continuing to terrorise me at home despite the valium. I am going to ask the social worker tomorrow for a referral back to Home Treatment Team because I am beginning to feel suicidal again. None of the options HTT gave me has worked; quiet music simply results in quiet but venomous abuse, PICUP is non existent, I cannot get help from any other source, so I need further help from HTT to overcome suicidal feelings. ....................................................................................................... currently 08:10 03/05/2007 I woke up an hour ago to massive shouting from MI5 mindcontrol. They keep calling me "paranoid dupa" and when I ask can't they just leave me alone, they answer "can't you just leave al Fayed alone", they are referring to themselves as al Fayed. But the Florida lawsuit has failed so I *am* leaving them alone and their words are lies. They just want to hang on to their well paid jobs abusing innocent people. I repeatedly prayed the Lord's Prayer while the Obscene English Pig chanted "paranoid dupa" at me. When I said the Hail Mary the OEP repeated "he wants to kill himself". Then he started with "paranoid dupa" again. currently 17:09 03/05/2007 Just had a meeting with social worker and psychiatrist, they refused to put me back to HTT despite MI5's "he wants to kill himself". As soon as I got home the mindcontrol mind repeating and repetition of words and abuse started again. MI5 still has a childish al Fayed fixation ... when I told them "stop talking to me" they gave a formulaic reponse "stop talking to al Fayed", rather in the manner of stupid children. "don't top yourself ... we wouldn't want you to harm yourself" they sneered. The OEP has just started repeating "paranoid kurwa". I cried again, and in return the Obscene English Pig swore at me. ....................................................................................................... currently 11:16 04/05/2007 the Florida lawsuit is dead, so the voices should have gone ... they said "if you leave us alone we'll leave you alone", instead they are still present and one of them told me "you're our bitch", that no matter what deals we make MI5 will break the deal and continue abusing me I told them I wanted a career and normal life, they answered "but we want you dead"; they verbally sexually abused my dead father again; "we don't care about you" currently 20:16 04/05/2007 This afternoon was surprisingly quiet, but the Obscene English Pig has made a late appearance repeating the word "dupa" as a recording constantly replayed. The OEP is probably the biggest bum on the planet so it is surprising that they should have chosen that word for him to repeat. currently 08:17 05/05/2007 The Obscene English Pig is repeating "paranoid dupa" again, from the moment I woke up in the morning. the mindcontrol people told me personally they thought they were wasting their time on me, but that MI5 managers had ordered that the abuse continue, and they could not dispute those orders. currently 16:12 05/05/2007 Some minor mindcontrol at Marylka's flat at DCC. At the Blithe Spirit pub "sick puppy" repeated over and over, I escaped. Currently no mindcontrol at home, surprisingly. currently 18:20 05/05/2007 The Obscene English Pig has started obsessively repeating "my penis in your mouth" ... it sounds just the same as it did a year and a half ago, it may be a recording or it may be the same person live. There is no pretence of "we'll leave you alone if you leave us alone" because the Florida lawsuit is about to be struck out and there is no UK legal action. MI5 mindcontrol are purely perverted sadists. ....................................................................................................... currently 20:23 05/05/2007 I fled to the nearby winebar where MI5 continued to molest me. Now I am home again and they are asking "what does oral rape mean?" It seems they are determined for me to kill myself. they just said "we will not do this to you anymore if you leave MI5 alone" ... they are lying, they always break deals, besides which the Florida action is about to be struck out and I am having trouble with my UK lawyers. currently 16:27 07/05/2007 Have just got home from a London hotel where the mindcontrol was present. They said "we feel like our lives are futile as well". I asked why don't they go after the Muslims instead of me, but there was no answer. They have been screaming obscenities at me ever since I got home. currently 20:55 07/05/2007 two hours ago I fled to the pub to get away from the mindcontrol ... now I am back in the house and it has started again There is a team of what sounds like three people and they are concentrating on the phrase "lovely you are" which is spoken by an old English homosexual to his target. In other words MI5 are stating that they are sexually molesting me. currently 09:21 08/05/2007 They have been abusing me over the mindcontrol from the moment I woke up, using formulaic language. currently 12:25 08/05/2007 The mindcontrol exploded with abuse after my phone call to Ansari during which he made it clear his firm would not take the case forward. MI5 mindcontrol explicitly said during my phone call to the Samaritans, "tell her you are thinking of killing yourself". Then they sneered "take another valium" which I did. currently 21:39 08/05/20075 The evening was unusually quiet until I found a cheap spectrum analyser which goes up to 7GHz. MI5 mindcontrol have taken exception to my intended purchase because they have started repeating "paranoid kurwa" over and over again which means I cannot sleep despite the sleeping pill. I told them they were HorrorFags and to go burn in hell for their abuses. ....................................................................................................... currently 14:26 09/05/2007 I have just ordered a SPECTRAN HF-6080 Rev. 2 (1MHz to 7GHz) spectrum analyzer, I wonder if it will find any transmissions in the mindcontrol. They don't like me repeating the Lord's Prayer, because when I do then the OEP calls me a "sick puppy". currently 18:31 09/05/2007 just got back from the winebar where there was no mindcontrol. At home I repeat the mantra "please stop torturing me" but unfortunately MI5 mindcontrol carry on shouting abuse regardless. currently 20:04 09/05/2007 just got back from the winebar where I went a second time this evening to escape the mindcontrol. they just said "we're ashamed of ourselves as well", rare for this sort of admission. currently 20:43 09/05/2007 I am trying to get to sleep and they are shouting over the mindcontrol to stop me sleeping. I said "please stop torturing me" and the Obscene English Pig started squealing "please stop torturing al Fayed", where 'al Fayed' is a reference to the MI5 team. ....................................................................................................... currently 08:02 10/05/2007 The mindcontrol has been torturing me since I woke up 30 minutes ago, from the very moment I woke up. currently 11:16 10/05/2007 they have been quietly swearing at me all morning ... I thought "God help me against these monsters" and they read my mind and replied with swearing. "stupid guy, leave MI5 alone" ... it seems they cannot stop themselves from torturing me, they are addicted to torturing my mind. I did some work on my website and the Obscene English Pig started swearing violently. It appears that the OEP "enjoys" swearing. MI5 also made clear that the reason they attacked my father is because he is dead and cannot defend himself. If my mother were dead, they would attack her instead, but she is alive and can talk back at them. They are still reading my thoughts and repeating them to me, "what does hand in glove mean", which is torture. The OEP keeps swearing quietly "paranoid kurwa" at me. ....................................................................................................... currently 08:48 11/05/2007 they severely attacked me yesterday evening at home with the mindcontrol, and they are attacking me again this morning as soon as I awoke. It sounds as if they are using recordings, particularly of the OEP. currently 15:20 11/05/2007 I spent most of today in the Clubhouse working. MI5 instituted minor incidents of mindcontrol in the clubhouse, I think to put me off going there. When I got home they exploded on the mindcontrol, sneering at the "dignity of work" which I had thought in the clubhouse. currently 16:29 11/05/2007 they are abusing me quietly, "my penis in your mouth" again from the Obscene English Pig, they are trying to pretend they aren't abusing me when in fact they are. currently 19:00 11/05/2007 Just got back from the winebar where I fled for two hours, the OEP is asking "what does oral rape mean?" and swearing at me violently. I told them "fuck off you faggots". ....................................................................................................... currently 09:54 12/05/2007 The mindcontrol started swearing at me as soon as I woke up at 7am. I fled to a cafe where there is no mindcontrol, as yet. currently 18:49 12/05/2007 got back from the West End where there was no mindcontrol. At home there is massive mindcontrol, "something wrong with the guy" being repeated over and over again, I think they are playing a recording. I am feeling very unhappy with the continuing mindcontrol at home. they said "we can't leave you alone ... yes that's right, we're paid" they said "it's our job, buggering people to death", surprisingly candid they are talking in low quiet menacing voices, they are trying to get me to take my life today they said "we don't hate you, it's just a job ... someone else hates you, yeah" I told them, I'm mentally ill, you shouldn't be doing this to a mentally ill person, they replied "you shouldn't be doing this to al Fayed" meaning themselves, meaning the legal action I have against them. They are terrifying me with their voices, I am taking 30 mg valium today to counteract the terror. I feel terrified because of their low menacing voices abusing me constantly. They are obsessive on the point of al Fayed; aren't MI5 supposed to be against al Qaeda rather than al Fayed? currently 20:38 13/05/2007 I slept for most of this afternoon so the mindcontrol was absent. It returned about an hour ago, they are swearing at me in quiet voices. There was a short period when I was awake and there was no mindcontrol, but that period was unfortunately brief. currently 08:30 14/05/2007 They are swearing very quietly at me from the moment I woke up. Just now they are repeatedly saying "paranoid dupa", I think it is a recording. currently 19:30 14/05/2007 I have been out of the house all day, there was no mindcontrol outside. As soon as I got in, MI5 mindcontrol started viciously swearing at me, particularly when I brushed my teeth. currently 21:06 14/05/2007 I have taken 15mg zopiclone for sleep, and I cannot sleep because of constant MI5 mindcontrol swearing at me. ....................................................................................................... currently 08:21 15/05/2007 The mindcontrol has started attacking me as soon as I woke up, swearing at me and reading my thoughts. I took a valium because I am afraid of the mindcontrol. currently 10:42 15/05/2007 I have just come out of the bath, during which MI5 mindcontrol said to me "what does lovely you are mean?" in reference to them being paedophiles abusing their victim. They said it several times. They were throwing almost continuous mindcontrol at me while I was in the bath. currently 19:26 15/05/2007 I asked what if they don't leave me alone despite my epic struggle, and they answered "kill yourself" currently 17:52 16/05/2007 today has been mostly quiet, I have taken lots of clonazepam, and received and worn an EMF absorbent suit. Unfortunately a few minutes ago MI5 mindcontrol returned saying "we fucked your father". So the EMF suit does not appear to work properly. Since my father is ashes in a churchyard and his soul is in heaven they have not said how they managed to do that. currently 13:06 17/05/2007 as soon as I woke up they attacked me. I went to Clapham Common where there was no mindcontrol. On return I put on the EMF absorbent suit, they are still quietly swearing at me "paranoid kurwo" but pretending not to, because they do not want to admit that the suit does not work and that their radiation bypasses the EMF suit. the MI5 mindcontrol also started scaring me and sexually abusing me while I was wearing the EMF absorbent suit, so it appears not to work. They are torturing me with the phrase "put the willies up him" which both means they are scaring me, and that they are raping me. currently 20:22 17/05/2007 Went out this afternoon, no mindcontrol. When I got home, put on EMF suit, MI5 mindcontrol started sexually abusing my dead father again. Conclusion, the EMF suit does not work, and only drives MI5 into more extreme language. ....................................................................................................... currently 18:35 18/05/2007 went out this afternoon to see social worker, there was no mindcontrol. Upon return put on EMF suit which does not help against the voices. They said "that's it, we want you dead", they don't want any settlement, they just want me to kill myself. They are swearing at me viciously "paranoid kurwa" from the OEP despite the EMF suit, so it does not work. currently 20:07 18/05/2007 They have been swearing at me all evening. I asked them "don't you ever get tired of being assholes?" to which they answered "all the time", it seems they are either using an Eliza program or their human operative wasn't very quick on the uptake. currently 21:22 19/05/2007 I have been out since 10am so MI5 mindcontrol have felt bereft of their target. Therefore they are attacking me severely once I have got back home, calling me a "sick fuck" and stopping me from sleeping. I have taken all my pills including sleeping meds and cannot sleep because MI5 mindcontrol keep torturing me mentally. ....................................................................................................... currently 18:20 20/05/2007 slept for most of the afternoon ... a few minutes ago MI5 mindcontrol started calling me a fag, using the code "you are not a fag", I told them I was heterosexual and they can all go to hell, they are the HorrorFags and not me. currently 20:29 20/05/2007 MI5 mindcontrol have been torturing me constantly all evening. Their latest phrase is "lovely you are" which is said by an old English paedophile to his prey. currently 21:56 20/05/2007 phoned Tony Quayle of HTT who said they would accept an admission - must call social worker tomorrow. Afterwards the obscene English Pig voice kept repeating "dupa". The OEP started repeating "he enjoys being raped". currently 10:08 21/05/2007 They are sexually abusing my dead father again, viciously. currently 14:23 21/05/2007 I have just been out of the house for two hours, during which there was no mindcontrol. It is still almost entirely within the house. currently 18:36 21/05/2007 Today is 9 years since my father died, and MI5 mindcontrol marked the occasion by viciously sexually abusing him this evening. The Obscene English Pig insisted "my penis in your mouth" while I prayed the Lord's Prayer and Hail Mary. The EMF suit does not work for receiving or sending messages. ....................................................................................................... currently 16:07 22/05/2007 went to POSK, no mindcontrol. Returned recently, violent sexual abuse against my mother this time. Unusual because she's still alive so she can defend herself, usually MI5 specialise only in dead people who cannot defend their reputations. currently 21:04 22/05/2007 Just got back from the clubhouse, MI5 mindcontrol taunted me "you wrote to Keith Hill? ha ha ha What's Keith Hill going to do? Nothing." currently 22:16 22/05/2007 I am unable to sleep because of continuous MI5 mindcontrol torture where they read my mind and repeat my thoughts. currently 10:14 23/05/2007 today is my 40th birthday, and the Obscene English Pig is quietly repeating "paranoid dupa" at me this morning. Even on my birthday they give me no peace and quiet. currently 20:10 23/05/2007 I spent most of the day outside ... just got back, MI5 mindcontrol tell me that "everyone dies" that they inflict their method on. This appears to be their way of wishing me a happy 40th birthday. This is followed by presumably a recording of the OEP shouting "paranoid dupa" continuously. ....................................................................................................... currently 10:28 24/05/2007 MI5 mindcontrol has been repeating "paranoid dupa" again this morning, it sounds like a recording. currently 18:07 24/05/2007 There was no mindcontrol in Streatham, then it resumed once I got home. There seems to be a different voice, not the OEP, although the language is the same. currently 19:24 24/05/2007 MI5 are still abusing me ... I tried the SPECTRAN showed no strong signals in the 0-6GHz range during the period of mindcontrol. I wonder if the microwave shielding will work or if it will be a waste of money. They are now abusing me using the "lovely you are" language again. currently 18:40 25/05/2007 Went to Marysia's this afternoon, there was no real mindcontrol until I got back home and brushed my teeth 30 minutes ago, at which point the Obscene English Pig (who is apparently not gone yet) launched into another round of homosexual sadism. ....................................................................................................... currently 08:37 26/05/2007 They were talking to me quietly and violently swearing at me from the very moment I woke up. I tried using the SPECTRAN which showed no strong microwave signals up to 6GHz. currently 13:20 26/05/2007 MI5 mindcontrol has been talking and swearing at me almost constantly today. They told me that if I called them HorrorFags again then they would abuse my father again. currently 18:25 26/05/2007 I spent the afternoon at Marylka's where there was no mindcontrol. It started again immediately as soon as I came into the house minutes ago. I ran a SPECTRAN while they were shouting and it showed no noticeable transmissions up to 6GHz. They kept their earlier promise that they would abuse my father again if I called MI5 mindcontrol HorrorFags. They did this while I was brushing my teeth. ....................................................................................................... currently 08:37 27/05/2007 They were waiting for me when I woke up and started talking to me immediately, I am leaving the house imminently. I stayed out all day until the evening. ....................................................................................................... currently 11:26 28/05/2007 They were absent until about 10am this morning, then I switched on the radio and they started loudly swearing at me. When I have the radio switched off, the loud swearing is absent. SPECTRAN VALUES: 5-6 GHz -39dBm at 5735 MHz, this is approx 100 nW so is not going to be a mindcontrol signal 4-5 GHz only insignificant signals 3-4 GHz only insignificant signals 2-3 GHz only insignificant signals 1-2 GHz only insignificant signals 0-1 GHz -49 dBm at 57 MHz, this is approx 10nW so is not going to be a mindcontrol signal The mindcontrol was heard during parts of the sweep, including some gratuitous sexual abuse towards my dead father in the last part. The conclusion is that either I missed their transmissions during the sweep, or they are not using single static microwave signals, or they are using frequencies above 6 GHz. ....................................................................................................... currently 23:05 28/05/2007 I have been outside all day, without mindcontrol. As soon as I got home the nasty English voice shouted "one two three four, what does that mean?" in reference to my habit of counting from OCD. currently 09:47 29/05/2007 They have been abusing me again since I woke up. They are using a recording of the Obscene English Pig repeating "paranoid dupa" over and over again. currently 21:21 29/05/2007 I went to the clubhouse this afternoon, there was no mindcontrol. Since getting home there has been continuous mindcontrol, particularly from the Obscene English Pig swearing repetitively. currently 12:19 31/05/2007 They were talking to me while I was in the bath, all the usual formulaic words. I think they are still trying to get me to kill myself because there is no letup in their constant abuse while I am in the house, and it is making life intolerable. ....................................................................................................... currently 12:47 31/05/2007 I am about to go out, and the Obscene English Pig is swearing "there's something really wrong with this paranoid dupa". The meds do not work. currently 17:29 31/05/2007 Got back from social worker. MI5 present on return but quiet. They quietly used the "tender" emotion from a year back which means they are sexually molesting me. currently 18:37 31/05/2007 MI5 mindcontrol have just said "we'll abuse your father". They are trying to force me to kill myself. I have been shouting out loud "help me Jesus" while MI5 mindcontrol insists "something wrong with that man". today I have taken 10mg clonazepam and 25mg valium for the fear - but there has been little mindcontrol, just the threat. I phoned NHS direct and told them what I had taken, they sent round an ambulance to ensure I had not taken an overdose. The ambulance arrived and I was questioned by the staff, but they agreed not to take me to hospital. ....................................................................................................... currently 10:49 01/06/2007 The ambulance yesterday has not caused the mindcontrol to stop ... they are still swearing at me from the time I woke up this morning. They said "what does crying with laughter mean?" they are viciously attacking me and laughing at me. I keep telling them, "why me, I haven't done anything wrong" to which they cannot give a reason. currently 10:59 03/06/2007 Mindcontrol has been much quieter this morning, although still venomous. However they also insulted my mother which they have not done much of until now. currently 21:31 03/06/2007 I have been out of the house all day, and there was no mindcontrol outside. currently 07:58 04/06/2007 I just woke up and they are already playing recordings of the OEP saying "paranoid dupa". currently 19:18 04/06/2007 Just got back from Balham Library. They said, if we leave you alone, then will you leave us alone? I said yes. It sounds as if they're not happy with my answer though, because they keep calling me "paranoid kurwa", so there is no change of behaviour on their part. I took my regular meds and 4mg clonazepam for the fear. They are still abusing me "paranoid dupa" despite all the meds I have taken. I think mindcontrol is not related to medication but to the moods of the "perps" who decide the intensity and nature of the abuse. I wanted a settlement, mindcontrol said "no settlement, just leave MI5 alone" ... seems the Florida legal action is not what they want. currently 15:47 05/06/2007 I have been at home all day today. There have been periods of quietness, and periods when particularly MI5's Obscene English Pig voice has been abusive. He explained "we're just playing with this guy". The volume is less but the venom is the same, first the OEP says "collapsed laughing" then says "what does collapsed laughing mean?" Telling him "fuck off you damn pig" makes no difference and the OEP continues the abuse. currently 16:46 05/06/2007 I just took 2mg clonazepam for fear, while the Obscene English Pig was verbally sexually abusive towards me. I just took another 2mg clonazepam because of the continuing voices, while they played an American recording of "something really wrong with this guy". Much of their communication with me seems to be through recordings rather than original speech. ....................................................................................................... currently 17:39 05/06/2007 The OEP has started screaming "paranoid dupa" like a stuck pig. As readers will have observed the Obscene English Pig is one of the biggest "dupy" on the planet. They are shouting sexual humiliation at me again, although at low volume. currently 19:22 05/06/2007 Today has been the worst day in a long time. I have taken 1200 sulpiride, 20mg zyprexa, 10mg clonazepam and a sleeping pill and I am going to try to get to sleep. The Obscene English Pig has been shouting at me almost incessantly and MI5 are torturing me constantly. currently 10:09 06/06/2007 The MI5 mindcontrol torture has started, and I am leaving the house to avoid it. currently 18:28 07/06/2007 They just shouted "we'll stop playing games with you if you stop playing games with MI5" ... they still do not want the lawsuits going ahead. They have been trying to force obscene thoughts into my head and I have been resisting. currently 12:48 08/06/2007 The Obscene English Pig voice keeps swearing "paranoid dupa" at me, I do not know if it is real or if they are using recordings. currently 18:29 08/06/2007 This afternoon I was out and there was no mindcontrol. I got home this evening, having run a job to post thousands of messages to Usenet, and the Obscene English Pig was there quietly talking venomous sexual abuse. ....................................................................................................... currently 09:11 09/06/2007 I slept the last night at Marek's house, where there was no mindcontrol. As soon as I got home ten minutes ago the MI5 HorrorFags started the usual verbal sexual abuse. I think they are sick. They are sexually abusing al Fayed again and threatening me with more torture if I do not drop the legal actions. currently 13:30 09/06/2007 They have been verbally sexually abusing me since I got back from the pub. I have taken all my meds. currently 18:25 09/06/2007 They just shouted "there's not going to be any settlement, we don't give money to people like you" ....................................................................................................... currently 20:05 09/06/2007 One of the mindcontrol team just shouted "we'll leave you alone in Canada okay". I don't know whether he was telling the truth or merely raising a false expectation which will be dashed, in order to depress me further. currently 20:33 11/06/2007 They got me in the Riviera Hotel as soon as I got in, I think they knew I was going to vancity bank and they followed me from there on foot. They are still trying to force me to stop the legal action, "leave us alone, leave MI5 alone". currently 10:10 12/06/2007 they are abusing me with "he's just a baby" followed by a recording of the Obscene English Pig saying "paranoid kurwa" currently 14:55 13/06/2007 They are abusing me in the Holiday Inn in downtown Vancouver, "kurwo you're our bitch" I told them they were torturing me, they replied mechanically "you're torturing al Fayed" where they refer to themselves as al Fayed. They lie, because I am not torturing them, they are torturing me with the mindcontrol. I took my meds and 6mg clonazapem to counter the fear from the mindcontrol, and it hasn't worked. Again I hoped that MI5 would not torture me in another country, and again I was wrong. This matter is so serious that MI5 are insistent on torturing and openly trying to cause the suicide of a Canadian citizen on Canadian soil. ....................................................................................................... currently 08:04 14/06/2007 I just woke up at the Holiday Inn and already MI5 are abusing me over the mindcontrol, "paranoid kurwo", they are completely vindictive. I told them "piss off you idiots" to which they replied with a recording of an American saying "someting wrong with that man". It seems they operate mostly through means of recordings. currently 18:46 14/06/2007 I just got in to my room at the Holiday Inn, and MI5 mindcontrol has been obsessively calling me "stupid guy". The mindcontrol was completely absent outside the room. They also severely verbally sexually abused me over the mindcontrol while I was brushing my teeth. The Obscene English Pig said "yes you dupa" just as I was writing the preceding sentence. I am disappointed that fleeing to Canada has not stopped MI5 mindcontrol's activities. They have no respect for the sovereignty of another country. Just as I was writing that sentence, the Obscene English Pig said "no, you dupa, no respect". A few minutes ago the Obscene English Pig said "we enjoyed watching you masturbate". I don't think I have ever encountered a more disgusting person than the Obscene English Pig, who is obviously a homosexual. ....................................................................................................... currently 11:01 15/06/2007 I just woke up and the mindcontrol started whispering immediately. dated 16.6.07 8.45pm Just got into the room, MI5 mindcontrol said "he likes a bit of rough" and I started iteratively praying the Lord's prayer and Hail Mary, and I cried. I have been out all day today and thought they would leave me alone on my return. currently 11:48 17/06/2007 Went to a Starbucks where there is no mindcontrol. dated 17.6.07 10.30pm The MI5 mindcontrol monstrosities attacked me as soon as I got home around 10.20pm. They have waited all day to attack me calling me "paranoid kurwa" and "something wrong with the guy". dated 17.6.07 11pm They are trying to stop me sleeping, I tried to go to sleep and they wouldn't let me. I told them "leave me alone you disgusting horrorfags" to which the Obscene English Pig started squealing hypocritically "leave al Fayed alone", where "al Fayed" means MI5 in their peculiar language. dated 17.6.07 11.15pm MI5 horrorfags are desperately trying to stop me from sleeping. They have just started vile sexual abuse of my dead father again, which had been absent for several days. I have been out all day and they are taking their revenge for being unable to attack me while I am out of the room at the Holiday Inn, by inflicting the worst possible abuse to stop me from sleeping. dated 18.6.07 3.40pm They just severely attacked me while I was brushing my teeth, then they said "we're not real" which they've been trying to inflict on me for several days. They clearly are real and they are lying. MI5 mindcontrol only exist in the hotel room and nowhere else. Basically they mindraped me while I was brushing my teeth. When you brush your teeth you are "caught" and cannot escape, and I have OCD about teeth so it takes more time to finish brushing. They take advantage of that period to mindrape me. They know the seriousness of what they have done because it has gone totally quiet afterwards. "whipping boy, put that down you stupid man"; I do not understand what this term means or why they have made me a "whipping boy". I asked "why am I a whipping boy?", they answered "because you have paranoid schizophrenia". ....................................................................................................... dated 20.6.07 "you're not sick" ("playing with the guy") from MI5 mindcontrol. MI5 MC earlier told me that they had not told the Americans about the MC in Seattle; "yes, now you see the picture", they are conducting a deniable operation in a foreign country. dated 22.6.07 5.30am, just woke up, the MI5 horrorfags were sexually abusing my dead father. dated 22.6.07 1.50pm they have been abusing me (mostly the OEP repeating "paranoid dupa") constantly while I am in this room. They just said "take the easy way out", they are encouraging me to kill myself. currently 18:38 22/06/2007 around 4pm today MI5 mindcontrol put "kurwa" on a repeating loop in my hotel room, so I escaped to the lobby which has wifi and where I am computing without trouble from the horrorfags. dated 22.6.07 9.40pm In the Holiday Inn lobby, my mind was read by MI5 whose voice, which sounded very much like Alan Holdsworth, started repeating "self harm". Right now, MI5 mc said "it isn't", they deny the paedophile sounding voice repeating "self harm" was that of Alan Holdsworth. I told them I thought they were gay wankers, at which the Obscene English Pig said "we're not..." but refused to say "gay wankers". dated 23.6.07 9.30pm woke up to a recording of MI5 calling me "paranoid dupa", ironically. ....................................................................................................... dated 23.6.07 9.20pm There was no mindcontrol until I got back to the hotel room around 9pm. Then MI5 mindcontrol tortured me and I cried severely. They are trying to force me to repeat "he likes crying" but I refuse to do so. I told them to go fuck each other, then answered stupidly "what does fuck each other mean?" They talk only in formulaic speech and appear to be morons. They just started calling me a "bastard". I am telling them "fuck off you disgusting torturers". I told them they were going to hell. Then they started sexually abusing al-Fayed again and said "he's going to hell". They sexually abused me also. dated 25.6.07 9am There was mindcontrol, particularly the OEP swearing, as soon as I woke up at 9am. They are still repeating "leave us alone" ie. the legal case in response to my "leave me alone". dated 25.6.07 11.30am Had a shower during which MI5 verbally abused me. Then they repeated "moving out of Seattle" from a phone conversation. Then they told me "kill yourself". ....................................................................................................... dated 25.6.07 9.45pm I have been outside all day and there was no mindcontrol. As soon as I got back in the hotel room the MI5 horrorfags started quietly whispering "paranoid kurwa" at me. dated 26.6.07 9.40am As I was waking up I observed a phrase repeating through my mind about the house, and after I was awake the mindcontrol repeated the phrase again. I do not know what the phrase was, however. Then when I spoke on phone to mother the horrorfags were swearing at me. currently 13:51 26/06/2007 I am in a bar where there is no mindcontrol. There continues to be a sharp division between mindcontrol at home/in the hotel room, and no mindcontrol outside the home. currently 19:44 26/06/2007 I am still in the bar with no mindcontrol. It happens only at home or in the hotel room. I am soon going to have to return to the hotel room to "face the music", ie. the wrath of MI5 mindcontrol for avoiding them all day. ....................................................................................................... dated 26.6.07 10pm Phoned mother - during the conversation the MI5 mindcontrol sexually abused al Fayed again. I was upset by the resurgence of mindcontrol. dated 27.6.07 1.50pm They were quiet for about 3 hours, now they've started sexually abusing al Fayed again. I regard this as betrayal because all I wanted to do was rest in my hotel room today. dated 27.6.07 8.30pm I phoned samaritans and MI5 mindcontrol exploded with a volley of "paranoid dupa" repeated over and over again. I cried immediately prior to calling the samaritans. 28.6.07 7am I have woken up early, and already the OEP is screaming "paranoid dupa". It sounds as if it may be a recording. ....................................................................................................... currently 15:48 29/06/2007 Moved to a suburban apartment yesterday, all was okay yesterday from 3pm until today around 2pm when the MI5 horrorfags made their reappearance. They have been verbally sexually abusing al Fayed and severely verbally sexually abusing my dead father, using the standard language. I am very disappointed that they have followed me to this apartment. They are accusing me of "breaking the agreement" that I would not report their presence if they stopped the abuse, but they did not stop the abuse, so I am perfectly entitled to report their behaviour. currently 08:27 30/06/2007 The MI5 horrorfags have been reading my mind and abusing me at this suburban Seattle home since I woke up half an hour ago, I just took a clonazepam and one sulpiride, they said "you can take as many pills as you want, it won't change the outcome". currently 12:11 30/06/2007 I have been outside in the local mall for two hours, there was no mindcontrol outside the apartment, it is only inside the apartment. They started abusing me as soon as I got into the apartment, swearing at me. I took another sulpiride. currently 13:40 30/06/2007 They have been abusing me since I got into the apartment. I just took a third sulpiride and a third clonazepam for stress. currently 14:35 30/06/2007 I asked them please leave me alone ... they replied "kurwo" ... I said that wasn't an intelligent response ... they said you're not an intelligent man. Looks as if being in Mensa doesn't qualify me as intelligent in MI5's eyes; they have the mindcontrol technology and surveillance, I don't. currently 20:42 30/06/2007 There was no mindcontrol outside the apartment; as soon as I got home, the Obscene English Pig started swearing violently at me. They keep on harping about al Fayed as if he were some sort of magician out to ruin the English state. I think they are crazy people. currently 22:34 30/06/2007 They are stopping me sleeping by repeating the words "rumpty rumpty" which are a version of "humpty dumpty". The words are meaningless but MI5 mindcontrol kept repeating them during the conversation with my mother to put me off, and they are still repeating them now to stop me from sleeping. ....................................................................................................... dated 1.7.07 4pm As soon as I got into the Elektra apartment I was attacked by MI5 mindcontrol which insists I drop the Florida lawsuit. But they refuse to meet in real life, or negotiate, they simply told me to drop the suit on pain of further torture. They must have been monitoring the hotmail address to find me here so quickly. I cried again briefly, because I was so upset at hearing mindcontrol voices again at the new apartment. dated 2.7.07 11am I am being quietly sworn at and attacked by the OEP voice, "something wrong with that man". They are deliberately supplying phrases which they want me to write down to denigrate myself. The torture is incessant this morning in the apartment. currently 13:57 02/07/2007 They have caught up with me at the internet cafe where I was writing webpages; the OEP shouted "we're wasting our breath", it sounds as if their motivation is decreasing. dated 2.7.07 8.30pm Just got in, MI5 mindcontrol started abusing me immediately. I asked why are they abusing me, they answer "because it is our jobs". I asked "why is it your jobs?" They could not give a coherent answer. dated 3.7.07 10.20am They read my thoughts as I woke up, and abused me, and I cried again. when I phoned the Canadian Consulate to give them my current address, MI5 mindcontrol filled the air with the word "idiot", not from any specific source but in a general way; surely that is not part of schizophrenia, but an artificial creation of horror ....................................................................................................... dated 4.7.07 10.30am Yesterday went to cinema and cried my eyes out. A few minutes ago they shouted "he locked her in a tree what does that mean", which meant they had put Diana in a coffin. Then they said "if you write that down we'll kill ourselves laughing". dated 4.7.07 11.10pm Been out all day, one aggressive American mindcontrol "what the fuck is wrong with the guy" on the monorail, otherwise quiet. Upon return to room, resumption of mindcontrol, they are not letting me sleep. A voice just came over the MC saying they were "sick of this nutter". dated 7.7.07 9pm They are trying to address me as "kurwo" and I answer "fuck off you gay perverts" but they keep repeating the word and I keep repeating the response. dated 7.7.07 9.30pm I am trying to sleep, and they are trying to stop me sleeping by making perverted sexual references to al Fayed. I told them Stephen Lander was going to hell for attempted murder and they answered falsely "Stephen Lander isn't going to hell, you are". I told them I have done nothing wrong so I am going to heaven. dated 8.7.07 3.30pm The OEP has just been swearing viciously again, "paranoid dupa". dated 8.7.07 5.50pm I called them "spiteful homosexual vermin" to which the OEP answered "we would kill you for that, but we can't". dated 8.7.07 6.45pm I phoned Samaritans and took 15mg zopiclone, the OEP started "crazy paranoid dupa". dated 9.7.07 10.15am They have just started playing a recording of the OEP's voice again. dated 9.7.07 11.10am They said "do you know what Moby Dick means?", I answered no, I thought it was some sexual insult. They answered "you are our Moby Dick", as in the famous book. I have not read the book and am unsure of the statement's meaning, although I have some approximate knowledge and can guess. dated 9.7.07 ??am MI5 are unhappy with what I wrote above and the OEP is screaming at me again on the MC. .......................................................................................................